I can’t cope

Yes, I did see the PGC was on sleep tonight @Captain24 .

For me, with my previous insomnia, I knew all the theory, but struggled to enact it. I later realised sleep wasn't coming because I was actually worked up and stressed out about not sleeping! The more I did this, the harder it was to sleep - so yes, I was self-sabotaging.

I still don't think I am a good sleeper, but I can't tell because of the meds I'm on.

I’m a pretty good sleeper when I get to sleep @tyme. I struggle to get to sleep, I think that’s where I really need to focus and follow a routine. I do wake up really early, though and struggle to get back to sleep.

My meds are suppose to help I think. But they don’t. I take my night meds before I for to work for nightshift.

Pretty good you can take night meds, then go to work @Captain24 .... does that 'undo' the work of the meds? idk - I'm not a dr.

Anyway, I hope to catch you tomorrow.

Please take care.

I have an appointment with my CM today. I really don’t want to go. I’ve gone to email her three times but I just can’t do it. I’m not sure I like her. I just want my old one back.

What do I do? I cant leave the house.

I went to my appointment and was there for 2 hrs. I didn’t really say much and there was lots of silences. She wanted to admit me.

I would say give them a chance @Captain24

It might take a bit longer to warm to them. Sometimes these types of relationships take awhile to develop.

Just set yourself small goals hon. Leave the house, get in the car, drive to appt., etc...

I hope it goes ok for you 💕💕

I'm glad you went @Captain24

Sometimes I have those silences with my psych too, and they feel really uncomfortable.

Perhaps an admission would be good for you. Perhaps something to think about.

I do think I need one @Snowie but I can’t right now with not knowing what’s going on with dad. Also I have to plan annual leave with work as I don’t want them to know.

@Captain24 I know the feeling 💌💌