I can’t cope

I’m filled with an overwhelming sense of sadness. Sadness of what my life is and sadness of what my life could have been. Sadness that I was never given the chance to flourish. Sadness that I will always be unworthy. Sadness that I am stuck with this for life.

Hi @Captain24

I'm new around here!

Thank you for leading with vulnerability, it has given me the chance to reflect on the sadness I feel and how it sometimes feels like a heavy cloud is above my head.

Does your sadness ever go for a break? Is it something you experience a lot?

I know for me sadness comes in waves some are crashing waves and other times it floats and gives me time and space to experience life without it (but it wasn't always like this).

Your feelings of sadness and what sadness looks like for you is acknowledged in this space.

They are so welcome here ❤️

I hold curiosity for your sadness, a little welcome to it and a hi-5 for bringing it to this space 🙂

Sending you lots of light,

fluffy light xx

Hi @fluffylight

Welcome to the forums.

Sadness is something I haven’t noticed before. Obviously I get sad from time to time. But this overwhelming feeling has only just been bought up. I had a psychologist appointment this morning and she had me focus on it. Now I can’t shift it.

I have now isolated it from my depression and feel both, but separately. I don’t know if it’s a good thing or a bad thing. It all still hurts the same. I feel the need to release the hurt. I feel alone sitting with this. I don’t have the strength left in me to work through it.

Hey @Captain24

You're definitely not alone in this feeling, I'm sitting with you and here if you wanted to chat 💕

Thanks @amber22

How are you today?

I think I need some help today. But my new CM isn’t as good or as contactable as my old one. I do have a counselling appointment at 5. I just feel too overwhelmed to function anymore today.

I'm going okay today, thank you @Captain24

That's completely okay to need some help today, you aren't alone at all and I don't want you to feel like you have to get through this by yourself (because you don't!)

Would a call to SANE Drop in line for a chat be something that could help right now?

I’m glad you are going ok @amber22. Has your sleep improved?

I could give it a try and see.

My other option is just going to bed but I need to learn how to deal with it and not just sleep. I feel sleeping gives me a break though. But it’s not good for my sleep routine.

I feel like I’m looking down on myself and just see a shell. I don’t even know who I am anymore.

My sleep has slightly improved, in saying that I didn't get a good sleep last night, I keep waking up feeling very anxious! @Captain24

What would work better for you right now? Calling and having a chat or having a nap? Whichever works best for you, but I will be here for you either way, you're not alone in this and I'm sitting with you this afternoon

It makes it harder when you don’t sleep well @amber22.

Im on hold to Sane at the moment. I struggle to call for help. I’m better writing it. If hold takes to long then my social phobia kicks in and I hang up.

Yes I definitely agree @Captain24

That's really great that you're calling SANE. We can have a chat here while you're on hold if that helps your anxiety with calling a bit 🙂