I can’t cope

Sleep well @creative_writer

Girls are usually easier as kids....

Then it swaps around. Teenage boys are easier than girls @Captain24 .

Of course there are exceptions. My nephew is the easiest kid out. While the 8 yr old girl is so difficult. Absolute attitude. Her concentration is so so poor. She's messy, she can't follow instructions - by choice. So I call her "Everything, everywhere, all at once" after the name of a movie.... As soon as I say everything, everywhere all at once, she knows what I mean.

The boy on the other hand... today I said I would pack some of their toys away because they had too many toys out. He then proceeded to clear the entire rumpus room, ordered all the toys in the middle and told me which to take. This kid is sooooo ordered. He then aligns all the pens, pencils, crayons in order inside a drawer.

Then the youngest who is 2 years old is a balance of the two older ones...

Anyway, how was your dinner tonight?

Dinner was ok @tyme. They dropped a bombshell on me though. The GP is pretty sure dad has prostate cancer. The blood tests results came back the same twice. They are just waiting for an appointment for a biopsy to confirm and see how bad it is. The GP said if he was under 50 it would be fine and if he was over 80 that would be it. But at 72 he couldn’t say one way or the other.

Im struggling to comprehend it all. I don’t know what to do? I don’t know what to think? It’s just a little raw right now. If someone else was saying this to me. I’d be saying wait and see what the results are first. Normally I'm like that but I think this low is making me see everything differently

Sorry to hear about your dad @Captain24 . It must have been such a difficult conversation, esp on mother's day.

I read it felt like a 'bombshell' when they told you and you are concerned - understandably. With everything else that is happening, it's okay to feel worried, but also know you can't do much at this point. So now it's about waiting for the biopsy. Fingers crossed things will be okay.

That’s what my head is telling me to do @tyme but my mind is worrying over what could be nothing. Sorry to dump this on you but I can’t tell anyone in my outside life. I’m really scared. I’m almost crying in fear.

Fear can be so crippling. I hear and sense your fear @Captain24 . It is understandable as you do not know what tomorrow holds. It must be so hard not to have anyone to speak to about it right now. It's also important to remember that you can be a great source of comfort to your parents right now. I can only imagine how hard it must be for them. Each day is just a waiting game until they hear what's happening.

We are with you @Captain24 . Please feel the comfort of our presence and know you are not on this part of the journey alone.

Thanks for hearing me @tyme I appreciate it. I just need my head to overrule my mind.

They are going to need my support my brother won’t help. Mums going to make it all about her. She has already said it’s his own fault.

Im glad that I have you guys on here. You all ‘know’ me and understand me better than my outside world. I appreciate this forum so much. Especially everything you have helped me with and continue to help me with.

People cope different when under stress and pressure @Captain24 . It sounds like they have their own difficulties in expressing their emotions in helpful ways. We are all learning, and it's great to be able to share insights with each other.

We love having you on the forums. Please know that you will never be alone while on the forums.

Even though I'm heading off for tonight, my thoughts are with you. I look forward to hearing any updates when I speak to you mid week.

Please take care. Take one step at a time or you'll end up falling over your own feet!

Thank you so much @tyme. I hope you sleep well and enjoy the next couple of days.

Good night.