I can’t cope

Hugs @Captain24 . You are an incredible person despite what your head tells you. Sometimes, it's about fighting those thoughts an parking Pix there instead.

You are part of our forums family. You mean a lot to all of us. I can see @Snowie cares a lot too.

I’m sorry.

Nothing to be sorry about @Captain24

We've all been there and needed the support around us.

You matter 💗

Hey @Captain24 ,

This is part of recovery. Those on the recovery journey have had these times. You are not alone.

I hear it is so painful and hard.

Yet I also recognise the flame of strength within you.

I'm here for you, and so is the community.

Why don’t I have enough. I can’t even go ‘shopping’ I’m not allowed my scripts

Precisely @Captain24 . To make them unreachable.

@Captain24 , I've been down that similar path. It has the potential to turn very nasty. I was close to death.

Ultimately, no one can stop you. But it is a bandaid to the underlying factors. You deserve to live. Give yourself permission to do so.

I’m so sorry to those that have supported me last night especially @Snowie @tyme @creative_writer @Shaz51 @hanami

I woke up. I’m not really surprised as I didn’t think it was enough.

I’m really sorry to let people down. I feel like a failure. I feel useless. I feel worthless. I guess I just have to learn to exist in this world of despair.

I now have to face the day ahead and I’m not sure that I actually want to. I have taken prn in the hope it helps me through

@Captain24 I don't have my scripts either hon, I know how it feels.

No need to be sorry, we all need that extra support at times.

You have so much strength. Even going through all you are going through you continue to show support to others, including me. That is something you should be proud of.

Will be around a bit today if you need some company 💕💕

Thanks @Snowie. I’m not ok. I don’t deserve support. Especially after what I tried. I am ashamed. Im actually surprised you commented. I didn’t really think anyone would as I have let you all down and failed you all. I don’t expect it and don’t deserve it

I hope you are going ok and shopping with D went well yesterday.

@Captain24 I am sorry you feel that way hon. I know that I have felt the way you are feeling now before. We think that we are not deserving of any help and have let everyone around us down.

Please know that these are only thoughts, they come and go.

I wouldn't message you if I didn't think you were worth it hon.

You are strong and courageous to be getting through this. You are worth fighting for.