I can’t cope

I’m in bed. I just went to try again but being the failure that I am I still wouldn’t succeed. I still have a bad headache and feel so nauseous from last night. Why did I do it to myself? Why wasn’t I able to stop myself?

Do you need any medical attention hon or to reach out to a helpline @Captain24 ?

The main thing is that you are still here. Am happy to sit here with you and chat for as long as you want.

What is something we don't know about you?

I hear you are hurting @Captain24 . I really do. It is not an easy time and I recognise that.

There is so much to keep you going even if it does not feel like that right now.

You have not failed. You have not failed us nor yourself. You are you. And right now you are telling us you are hurting.

Please reach out whether it is to your CM, a counsellor, Lifeline, BeyondBlue etc. You deserve to live. Give yourself permission to live.

Hugs to you.

Hugs to you too @Snowie - you are a brave soldier. Your posts mean so much.

Thank you @Snowie @tyme

I had a nap and did take the advice of calling for help. They nearly called emergency services on me. I had to convince them that I would stay safe. To stop the call. That scared me a lot!

Im sorry I’ve been so negative. I really hurt deep down and it’s really hard.

The support you have both shown me means so much and does help. Especially when life isn’t easy for anyone.

As for something you don’t know about me @Snowie I don’t know? I’ve been pretty much an open book. Did you know I used to dance until 5 yrs ago?

You mean a lot to us @Captain24 - probably more than you think at this time.

I think I’ve just hit rock bottom @tyme.

I guess I can’t fall any further. So I can only hope that it’s up from here.

Thank you @tyme. I really need to hear that right now. Even though my head is telling me I don’t deserve it. You all mean so much to me too. That’s what is hard. I’ve let you all down and it makes me feel shame. I hate letting people down.

Are you around for a bit or heading off?

Ooooo, that’s true @Captain24 , if you’ve hit rock bottom, you can’t go down further. I’ll be in and out so feel free to message.

Thank you

Oh I didn't know that you danced @Captain24

I did dancing for about 23 years when I was younger. Gave up a long time ago however!

I hope tonight goes a little easier for you hon. I will be in and out too. Have tea with some family we haven't seen for a long time. Going out so at least I can leave when I have had enough. Don't normally go out for tea. Would rather just order takeaway.

Hey @Captain24 i was thinking about you earlier! So sorry that I missed your posts last night and earlier today, and so sorry that you are struggling so much at the moment. Sounds like things have been pretty dire, I’m glad that your still here 💕