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I can’t cope

Captain24Senior Contributor16 June 2022, 9:48 pm AEST

I can’t cope

Hi. I’m new and have never been in anything like this before.
I’m really struggling with depression at the moment and just need a place to vent.
there is no reason as to why I feel this way. I just hate myself and feel like I’m an unworthy and useless person. I don’t have a partner or many friends. I feel like I keep pushing them away when I’m down. I’m just not worthy of them. I hate life and just wish I would go to sleep and not wake up. I feel so much emotional pain inside but numb at the same time. None of this makes any sense but it just how I feel.

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BowSenior Contributor08 Apr 2023, 9:10 pm AEST

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are you stinky too @Captain24 ?? I’d imagine it could be a smelly place!

and too funny about being dragged along by a goat!

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Captain24Senior Contributor09 Apr 2023, 6:47 am AEST

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Yes @Bow. I came straight home and has a shower. Pixie wouldn’t come near me. She was scared of the smell! It was quite funny.

I wish I could have watched me being dragged, it would have looked pretty funny!

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Captain24Senior Contributor09 Apr 2023, 9:37 am AEST

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Happy Easter to all that do Easter

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Captain24Senior Contributor09 Apr 2023, 2:11 pm AEST

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I’m falling rapidly. I had a great day yesterday and went to mass this morning for the first time since Christmas. It was good. Now I’ve had 2 meals with my parents and I have to go back for a third. I don’t want to. I need a break from them. I don’t want to do anything. I’m back in that pit that I don’t want to be in. When will this ever get easier. If it’s not going to, I don’t wish to continue and I will take matters into my own hands.

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Captain24Senior Contributor09 Apr 2023, 3:24 pm AEST

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I don’t want to go through this again. The sharp rapid drop gives me thoughts I shouldn’t have. I desperately want to listen to them. But I know I shouldn’t.

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ToastieCasual Contributor09 Apr 2023, 3:30 pm AEST

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hey @Captain24

is there a way you can not go to your parents house for that 3rd meal? it seems like it'll be really triggering from you.

obligations to family are hard to balance but its important we look after ourselves too.

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Captain24Senior Contributor09 Apr 2023, 3:49 pm AEST

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Hi @Toastie.

I have to go. Being Easter they expect me there and have already got the stuff for dinner. I’m the only one that makes an effort for them.

I hate that I always put others needs and feelings before myself. I don’t have the strength to say no. So I guess it’s my own fault. I just have to be strong enough to deal with it.

I need to find some strength within to deal with the aftermath. I just don’t know that I’m strong enough.

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ToastieCasual Contributor09 Apr 2023, 4:03 pm AEST

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yeah around holidays like this it can be hard to not oblige with those family obligations.

what helps you normally? whats something you can normally draw strength from?

is there something you can plan to do for yourself after you see your family?

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Captain24Senior Contributor09 Apr 2023, 5:18 pm AEST

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I’ve got nowhere left to draw strength from @Toastie. I am literally depleted. I also had a massive social day yesterday which always leaves me empty. I feel as I have nothing left to give. Right now it’s so hard to put one foot in front of the other. I just want to go to bed and never come out.

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Captain24Senior Contributor09 Apr 2023, 7:13 pm AEST

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