I can’t cope

That’s good @tyme. It’s sounds intriguing!!!

I was a little too happy last week and the guys at work that know what’s going on thought I was cured! Lol

Im so glad you are happy. After all

you have been through you deserve it.

How’s life next door? Especially with your BIL

"Cured"... if only it was that easy! @Captain24

As for life next door, I was sad to hear my BIL quite disappointed when he said "In 4 years, I've earnt less than $40 grand...."

I think my sister and I are so 'able', that he feels bad about it.

I really don't know what to do.

In terms of the kids, they've trashed the house so I'm not even going anywhere near there. I went there quickly this arvo and I seriously can't even find the floor! They are building forts and cubbies... it's a safety hazard. I quickly retreated to my place.....

I wanted the kids to clean tonight, but I have to remember it's not my house. I can't stand a place like that.

So yeah... my sis and I are different there. It's always been like that. We used to share a bedroom as kids... I got so mad that I made a line down the middle of the room and pushed all her junk over to her 'side'.

That is sad @tyme. To me being in a job you enjoy is more important. But it doesn’t help with the bills. It’s also a different world this days. It’s ok for women to earn more. Does your sister love her job?

I can’t cope with that much mess. I’m so glad I don’t have kids. My house gets pretty bad when I’m unmotivated and not ok. But it’s just rubbish in the kitchen, dishes not done and floors not vacuumed or washed. Oh and piles of washing that needs to either be washed or ironed!

Im so glad I had a brother and never had to share a room. It would have been so hard being polar opposites.

My sister only works 3 days because she stays home for the kids. They have swimming and piano lessons afterschool. As much as their dad tries to help, there's only so much he can do. Really, honestly, it's my sister that 'runs' the house. The drugs really have affected my BIL's abilities.

But as I said, he's an awesome guy. I just wish I could help him.

My sister said the kid's finish school early tomorrow so they will spend the afternoon cleaning the house - that's my sister. Makes all the mess then cleans whereas I clean along the way....

I'm also glad I don't have kids. I'm too free.... @Captain24

I really feel for him @tyme. I’m sure he is doing the best he can and that’s all anyone can ask of him. It’s terrible that the short period of childhood can ruin your life through the long period of adulthood.

I rarely clean as I go. It’s always after I have made the mess. Even though I do try! Lol

Anyhow I’m exhausted. It’s been a big 2 days mentally and physically. I have handled it all pretty well. Including a possible melanoma, a possible autoimmune disease and a diagnosis of vitiligo which means I may keep getting patches on my skin which lose pigmentation.

I’ve been in a pretty good place but my mind is turning to thoughts that it shouldn’t turn too. I’m guessing it’s just exhaustion and physical pain.

I hope you have a good night and day tomorrow but I think I should really go to bed.

Thank you for tonight. I appreciate it.

So much happening for you @Captain24 !

I'll catch you tomorrow hopefully. I'll be on the Peer Group Chat but can chat after 🙂

Have well deserved rest.

I’m feeling a little flat today but I’m ok. Maybe it’s just that I’m tired (hopefully) or that I have to wait until next week for all my test results. Plus I’m in a little bit of pain.

I have no energy or motivation and no care for life. It’s so confusing. I’ve had this since last week. But I was in an elevated mood which means I should’ve had heaps of energy to burn. I really don’t get what’s going on.

@Captain24 💜💜

I poured my heart at in an email to my nurse. She never got back to me. I’m feeling a little rejected. I have so much going on I just need to support and help understanding

There’s just too much going on