I can’t cope

Hi there @Captain24 ,

How's things tonight?

I’m all over the place @tyme. I’m worrying about results that I shouldn’t be as there is nothing I can change. Normally I just take it as it comes.
I have no motivation or energy. I poured my heart out in an email to my nurse and she didn’t get back to me. That hurt a little. I’m starting to think the high from last week is crashing.

Sorry to hear that @Captain24 . Have you actually received the results? I apologise that I have not read through everything.

As for the email you sent, I'm so sorry this is impacting you. I've had similar experiences and have been so upset because someone did not get back to me. However, over time, I self-soothed and said, "they didn't get back for a reason - whether it's because they haven't been able to receive the message, they want to increase me distress tolerance, they have been caught up". Through this self-talk, I was able to distance myself from the hurt and look at it in a more logical light. I found that helpful.

Then, then next time I spoke to the person, I would let them know how I felt when they didn't respond, and from what I remember, I've always receive a plausible answer - and accepted it.

Sorry if i'm babbling too much.

No results yet. @tyme. I’m hoping I hear something next week.

She was probably busy or she may have started her Easter break early. Or maybe she is trying to increase my distress tolerance. I can ask her whenever we talk next. I don’t know when that will be.

Im just so confused with my mood too. But it is now starting to slip. But I’ve been ok but with no motivation or energy like I’m in a depressive episode.

Sorry I’m not making any sense. That’s where my head is at.

I have managed to clean most of my house. It’s more than I have done at once in over 2 weeks. But now I have nothing left. I still have ironing to do. I need to clean the shower but I can’t even be bothered to have a shower.

I HATE MY LIFE

I don’t think I want to do this anymore. I don’t think it’s worth it. I’m not worth it.

Hey there @Captain24 ,

I'm not staying around, but just read your message and hope you are okay. Will you be going to your folks for easter? Is dad a bit better now?

I’ve just had a nap @tyme and feel even worse. I don’t want to do it anymore.

I have dinner at mums tonight and I think I’m showing goats tomorrow. I’m hoping to get out of sundays show as it’s mums first Easter without nan.

I hope you have a nice Easter planned (if you do Easter)

I hear you don't want to do it anymore @Captain24 . It's such a blahhhhh feeling. It's a yuck feeling.

Remember to consider:

Where do you feel it?

What colour is it?

How heavy is it?

What is the texture?

What size is it?

Hopefully, this will give you a bit of distance between the feeling and you.

As for me, I have a headache at the moment. I've just been sleeping. I'm not working at the moment, but wanted to say hi.

I don't have anything much planned. I just want to use the time to clean and sleep 🙂

Btw, showing goats???