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I can’t cope

I can’t cope

Hi. I’m new and have never been in anything like this before.
I’m really struggling with depression at the moment and just need a place to vent.
there is no reason as to why I feel this way. I just hate myself and feel like I’m an unworthy and useless person. I don’t have a partner or many friends. I feel like I keep pushing them away when I’m down. I’m just not worthy of them. I hate life and just wish I would go to sleep and not wake up. I feel so much emotional pain inside but numb at the same time. None of this makes any sense but it just how I feel.

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I'm glad she got back to you @Captain24 . Some good things to think about there.

Ah ok, a small hospital wouldn't have a PW. It would be nice as they are often more available than a CM and just having a talk with someone can help.

Hope you are ok

Hanami

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She use to be available more regularly but she has taken on a new role which involves travelling. I’m not sure for how long. She was only able to keep on a couple of patients and she chose me as one. @hanami. There is another nurse I can talk to if I need but she is only young. I just feel useless that I’m old enough to be her mother and she has to help me. She is lovely and helpful though and my CM gets her to ring me if I send her a concerning email when she is out of town.

When I said to my CM I was considering peer work she did say that they needed them. I looked at the course but it’s online classes and I can’t commit with my work roster. So I’m considering cert IV in MH instead.

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@Captain24 I did my cert 4 in peer work online through MHCC. There was only one online class every few weeks and the rest was work at your own pace. Mental health cert 4 is also a good option.

I know what you mean about feeling old enough to be someone's mother. At 53 I really relate! I remember seeing this super young GP for a script update for anxiety meds and she was giving me advice and stuff but it felt so odd.

Such is life though!

Hanami

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What is a CM?

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My Case Manager @Snowie


Hope you are ok

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I’ve arrived at my appointment 25 minutes early. I’m a little anxious that they may do biopsies. I’m ok with getting them cut out. I can watch them do it but I hate stitches. I can’t watch them and I can’t look at them.

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Thinking of you @Captain24 . Hoping it all goes so well for you.

❤️

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@Captain24 I hope that your appointment went ok and today is going a little better for you.

Take care 💜💜

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Thanks @Snowie @hanami. I’m home after a long day.

I had 2 biopsies done. One on my arm and I can see the stitches. 🤮 The other behind my ear so I can see them! The one behind my ear is a concern. The one on my arm they are checking just in case it’s a melanoma.

But I do have Vitiligo. Is a skin pigmentation disorder. It usually comes with an autoimmune disease. So now they are looking into that too. So I have more bloodwork to get done.

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Oh @Captain24 I feel you. I hate stitches too. I had a melanoma 18 months ago. Discovered and taken off within a few days. The scar is on the back of my arm so I can't see it. But I do notice it now and then and shudder. It looks like a shark bite. I hope they come back all clear but honestly if they don't you can be sure they can be taken off and you'll be al good. Thinking of you.

Hanami

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