I can’t cope

Yes, the fight IS exhausting. Sometimes, it's about giving yourself a break and just letting things be as they are. Other times, it actively fighting. However, you need to be given the correct tools of for the weapon - otherwise you may as well go into war with a rubber sword.

Get what I mean @Captain24 ?

You must be equipped. And that's probably not what CATT and acute teams are meant for. Somehow, it's about find someone who can equip you with and practice the skills (long term)

All good @Captain24 . I'll speak to you tomorrow - probably only briefly though.

Have a good rest, and all the best with work @Captain24 . It's hard to get there, but once you are there, you will be in your element 🙂

Hi @tyme @amber22 @Peregrinefalcon..

Im not sure if you all will get this. But after talking to my nurse last night and the support of you all. I am up and getting ready to head off to work with added help of prn.

I actually feel a little better at the moment.

You've got this today ❤️ Take one step at a time @Captain24

So I had a win. @tyme I made it to work.

It wasn’t a very good day and I felt pretty low most of the day. I’m not in a good place right now. I am definitely not ok.

I just can’t shake this crisis mood. You must be so over me and sick of hearing it. I am.

Just waiting for Pix to come home, then I’ll make some dinner.

I hope you have had a good day?

You gave it a shot, and that's the most important thing @Captain24 .

I hear it is hard for now. I hear that it seems there is no light.

Just do what you can for now @Captain24 .

Will you be able to speak to your nurse soon?

Pix will put a smile on your face, eh?

My day was pretty good. I'm actually more refreshed now than I was at the beginning of the week.

I was only posting to others that I'm making the kids a shop. So they were helping me this afternoon to make this shop. I will sell them things if they get money for chores - not steal money! So I want them to write down and tally the money they earn and then they can spend it at my shop.

This started because I went to the toy shop and I saw these really cute mini squishmallows. I wanted to get them, but I hate having stuff in my house. So I decided that I'll make a shop for the kids to buy them. LOL. Using the kids for my own love for suqishmallows?

Tonight I’m not fighting. I’m too exhausted. I know I’m safe so I just have to trust in that. I haven’t been able to say that I’m safe and mean it for a few days. @tyme

I don’t think my nurse wants to speak to

me anymore! 😝.

She rang me last night and talked to me. I started crying (I’m so embarrassed)and she asked me to go to the hospital and I said no. She understood it would be even more traumatic for me. She told me I had to email her before work.

I did email but I didn’t send it. It went to drafts! She left me a distressed msg at 9:30. I went to my phone in my break at 4 and got her msg and discovered I hadn’t sent the email!

She called me a devil! It did make us both laugh. The poor women wasn’t sure if I was still here or not.

she told me to take the prn to go to work for the next 2 days. I will hopefully talk to her on Monday. I will probably have to email as I think she starts her new job. But she will ring me back when she can. She will be back to come to the psychiatrist with me on Thursday though.

Im glad you feel refreshed. It’s a great feeling.

That’s so cute. I love how you’re ‘using’ them though. Just so you have toys to play with! That’s the best thing with kids!

You're too funny @Captain24 .

Enjoy the laugh.

Also, it sounds like work was good to make you tired. 🙂

Have a good one and I'll speak to you tomorrow.

Hugs to Pix too!

Thanks @tyme

Goodnight