I can’t cope

Hugs @Captain24 .

I'm here.

Did you manage to sort things out after your holiday?

Hi @tyme

I’m not ok and I’m scared to go to work tomorrow. I don’t want to go. But I know I have too. My nurse rang me just before 5 and I cried on the phone to her. I haven’t done that before. She wanted me to come to hospital but I promised her I would email her in the morning.

Sorry to be like this still.

Hey @tyme.

Can I ask you a question?

Of course you can 🙂 @Captain24

How did you find the light @tyme

It just happened... i didn't even know it was happening.

But I remember being discharged from a service. I nearly crumbled. Yet this was the turning point in my recovery. I had all those years of therapy. It was now my turn to stand on my own two feet.

I had to trust myself. Let myself fall and tell myself it's okay.

Recovery is a battle and an active process. It is not able sitting back and waiting for recovery to come. It was about going against the tide - the harshest of situations, and being let go by others to learn to stand on my own two feet.

It was TOUGH.

Thanks. @tyme.

I am trying and not sitting and waiting. But I keep ending up in this space. My nurse said it was my condition and not me. I just don’t know how to change it. The constant fight is exhausting.

I’m tired @tyme. I’ve taken extra meds so I’m going to bed. I hope you have a restful night and a good day tomorrow.

Thank you

Sorry