I can’t cope

Thankyou @Jynx ❤️. It's just been one thing after another and so much loss. Then to top it all off tonight i decided to have Chinese for dinner as I had no energy to cook and it's affected me, the MSG has cause an allergic reaction affecting my breathing 😞.

I'm about to connect to a crisis service to talk, it's going to be another night of using them to try to get through (I'm safe).

I'm just glad that she got to retire and travel and live her life to the fullest even though the disease was taking her bit by bit. She was such a beautiful person with a bubbly personality.

Today started out with us going out to a suburb that we have never been to before. It was ok but would be nicer if it wasn’t low tide. We will go again another time and watch the tides. We walked the entire waterfront. Pix got tired so we out her in the pram for a bit.

Mum got to use her good camera for the first time in a long time.

There was this really cool tree

Then there was a dead tree. I live dead trees.

We had some lunch here where we are staying and then had a little birthday party. My little snuggle buddy Jett is 3 today.

It was a really nice afternoon. The sun was out it the weather was ok other than the breeze. I head down to the beach all excited that it’s going to be a great swim. I was ready and eager, looking forward to it much more than the last couple of days. I get there… the beach is closed!!! 🦈 🦈 🦈 Bloody animals! I did lay in the sun for a bit and felt the warmth and listened to the sound of the waves. It was the first time I have felt mindful this whole trip. It was really nice.

We met up with my brother and sorted out his birthday present and then we went and had fish and chips and sat and ate it in the water front.

All in all a reasonable day

@MissGremlin @Jynx @AuntGlow @Nala2022 

@Captain24 Awwww happy 3rd birthday to Jett ❤️.

It sounds like a lovely day all round, I'm so glad that you finally got to feel some mindfulness. Lots of love and hugs to you sweetheart ❤️

@MissGremlin that is scary! Please look after yourself and don't hesitate to visit hospital or even call the nurse-on-call if your breathing gets too difficult!

I hope you were able to get onto the crisis line and got someone kind. Sounds like you cared very much for your friend, I'm glad you were in each other's lives.

Take it easy tonight, hun. Hugs <3

Hey @MissGremlin

It’s been pretty ok. Still a few issues between mum and dad but I’m dealing with it. Hopefully there is no sharks tomorrow as it should be a nice day again and I want to go swimming.

Sounds like things are a bit tough for you right now. Just know that I’m thinking of you. Keep posting to at least have somewhere to put it instead of just inside your head.

Im going to bed now as u hurt my back when I feel up an and step and my legs are aching from all the walking and running. I had better have lost weight this week. I have done an extreme amount of exercise for me when I usually actually do none!

@Captain24 glad to see you're having a good time and getting some mindfulness in too! Happy bday to Jett! Lil cutie <3

Lovely pics, appreciate the tag ^_^

@Jynx it is scary and brings back the trauma of the severe reaction i had when i was younger. I plan to take an antihistamine a bit later and then hopefully be able to sleep.

I've been able to connect to the crisis service and I'm still chatting to them.

Thankyou sweet ❤️.

@Captain24 I'm sorry there's still those issues but you're doing well to manage things. Hoping that there's no sharks tomorrow so you can go swimming.

Thankyou sweet, it's really been so hard and just one thing after another. It's really helped to be able to get things out and also have some support here while things are feeling so intense (I'm safe).

That's not good about your back, I hope it's feeling better after some rest tonight. You've definitely done alot and I'm sure you'll see some results from it. Night night sweetheart ❤️.

@MissGremlin I’m really sorry things have become so frightening and exhausting, especially when you’ve been reaching out for support and still feel so alone with it. I’m glad you’ve shared this here, and that you’re taking things one breath at a time with Casper close by. Given how much harder it’s becoming to stay safe, please keep reaching out for urgent support and maybe let your GP know just how much things have changed, I hope your appointment goes well today. You deserve to be heard and supported through this, and you don’t have to manage it all on your own 💛

Hi @Captain24

You’ve certainly had some eventful days!

It sounds like you’ve had some lovely moments with your family and the dogs, even with the unexpected beach closure. I especially loved reading about you feeling mindful for the first time this trip, soaking up the warmth and listening to the waves. Sometimes those little moments of peace can make such a difference. I hope you can get some good rest and be gentle with your body, especially with the extra walking and the effects of your injections

Also, love the pics and I hope you continue to enjoy your trip away 💛