I can’t cope

Hey @Captain24,

I had a reply for you, but it deleted before I could send it!

I am going to leave you with this:

The acronym RAIN is an easy-to-remember tool for practicing mindfulness and compassion using the following four steps:

• Recognize what is happening;
• Allow the experience to be there, just as it is;
• Investigate with interest and care;
• Nurture with self-compassion.

How could you explore this tonight? 💛

Hey @AuntGlow

Im about to go to bed. At least I get to bed a bit earlier with not smoking.

R— Come down from mania, feeling defeated, feeling negative

A— Sitting with it. Allowing it to be there. Laying in bed clearing my thoughts

I— I don’t get this one

N— Had a hot bath, weetbix (comfort food) for dinner. Now snuggles into bed.

@Captain24 count down the sleeps!

Yeah phone updates can be very annoying hey. Even when they're supposed to be an 'improvement'!

I definitely wouldn't say I am an expert at reading the tides, but I do know that if you see a section where the waves aren't really breaking as much, you gotta avoid it!! That's a rip. I imagine you could find some educational videos about it on Youtube!

Aww poor Pix, I didn't even know animals could get car sick! Maybe that's why my cats meow so loudly ahaha.

Aww sounds so special! I'm glad you have this to look forward to hun. I hope you have a fabulous time!

I am!! @Jynx

At least you have an idea. I’ll stick to swimming between the flags! I feel safe. There has only been a couple of sharks spotted close to shore this year so that should be ok.

Pix is severe. The first place we can stop after we leave here is and hour and 20 minutes away. She is highly medicated and still only just makes it. We get her out and walk around for a little bit. All go to the toilet and they have a drink. Then the next place that we can stop is just under 2 hours and she usually makes that too, sometimes not! Then we are nearly there. There is no other places we go through that we can stop at, just those 2 other than just pulling over to the side of the road if she gets sick.

I am really looking forward to it.

I have found something I want to do for my 50th next year. It’s a bucket list item! I want to go on a cruise to the Whitsundays and snorkel on the Great Barrier Reef! I want a balcony room! I just have to see what holidays I have left after all mums surgeries.

I’m missing you @MissGremlin 

I’m dreading going back to work tomorrow. I am glad I called in sick today. All I’ve done is sleep and watch TV. I’m still struggling really badly with not smoking. I keep walking to the cupboard to get one. Then I remember that there is none.

Im feeling really down, coming down from the mania. Really on edge. Really alone. Really not wanting to face another day. I’m safe but I don’t want to be. I’m wishing I could find an affordable way not to go to work.

Im really wishing I wasn’t here right now.

sorry you are feeling this way @Captain24 . What would be helpful at the moment, which is in line with recovery focused posting? Thank you for letting the community know you are safe

I’m sorry. I’m safe. Just apologising for not being a better person.

Just an apology.

Hey @Captain24, you don’t need to apologise for struggling or feel like you have to be a better person. You’ve been dealing with a lot lately, and you deserve support just as much as anyone else

I’m glad you’ve let us know you’re safe. I just wanted to check in and let you know I’m here if you feel like chatting. Please be gentle with yourself 💛

Hey @Nala2022

Im guessing you have read along?

I’ve just gotten up to fed the dogs and now all I want to do is go back to bed. I didn’t sleep well last night at all.

Calling in sick today has cost me a lot of money but I just had to do it. I will have to go for the next couple of days though. I need to focus that it’s just 3 more days of work and then I go away.

I still have that same urge. But o don’t have the entry to act on it or plan it. Plus I don’t have the leave and I don’t want any injury while I’m away. I want to go to the beach while I can.

Im feeling really down and out. My psych checked in last week and I told her that I felt strong, tough, invincible and that nothing could hurt me. Having read that back I sounded a little manic. Well maybe a bit more than a little. I have never felt that before. That was new. But while I felt that I was still tired and feeling low.

Now I’m no longer invincible and struggling to get through the day. Last week at work was great as nothing could upset me and this week I just can’t face it. All I want to do is lay in bed with my dogs. Last night I kept annoying them for cuddles as I wasn’t sleeping much and just needed some love.

Im sorry.

How are you going?