I can’t cope

@Captain24 I'm really glad that you've got your psych sweet.

You never know, either way I hope that I get support there.

Thankyou sweet ❤️. It's still not turning out great, but I'm glad to be almost finished with it.

It's good that you're mum is willing to help bath the dogs, are you going to be able to manage drying them?

I was trying so hard to hold myself together. I've sat and done my diamond art until I finished it. I really struggled at the end, I couldn't sit still, I felt like everything was building up inside, like I wanted and needed to move but I was scared that if I did i wouldn't be able to control my actions. I've curled up on my lounge, tears have hit out of nowhere and there's no holding them back. My heart is pounding, I'm tired of feeling nauseous and dealing with the headspins. I reached out to a crisis service but I froze, I couldn't explain how I felt and what was happening and i didn't feel worthy of support so I ended the chat.

I can't make sense of what I'm feeling right now, there's a huge amount of overwhelm but I don't know why it's there, there's anger, so much anger and I don't know how to calm it, there's pain and sadness, so much grief. It's all just feeling like too much. I'm safe for the moment, Casper is snuggled up with me. I just needed to get this out, to not feel so alone while things are feeling like this.

Hey @MissGremlin just want to stop by and give you a bit of gentle support and encouragement for all the things you're doing to look after yourself right now. I hear things are really hard and that it's difficult to reach out right now, and that it was hard to describe how you were feeling in the crisis chat, so I'm really glad you were able to use this space to get some of these emotions down in writing. Maybe if you feel like you need to reconnect with the crisis service you could even just copy and paste some of what you've written here to make it a bit easier.

I'm glad that you're safe and with Casper, I hope letting this out and keeping connected on here it helping too

Thankyou @Ru-bee ❤️. Right now I'm just resting for a little bit before I have to go out. It did help to get things out a bit, it's just alot all at once.

I’m home @MissGremlin

Im sorry you are struggling still. I hope that by trying to get some rest before it all hits helps.

I haven’t done any damage. The burns unit doesn’t need to see me again and has bandaged it all up for now. I take the bandage off when it falls off!

Im here until 6 if you need me. Then I’m going to dinner for dad’s birthday. I’ll be home around 8ish as I need to be home to feed the dogs.

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Oh no.. not again. Over the other day or more as well? @MissGremlin

Im sorry. I can only imagine how you are feeling. Tough times ahead. Hopefully it can be settled soon.

I hope going out goes ok

@Captain24 yes over the hospital visit. I've just rang them to talk to them about what happened so we'll see what happens. Will chat to you a bit after sweet.

@Captain24 are you still around sweet?

Yes. I just came back on @MissGremlin