I can’t cope

How did you see that? @MissGremlin.

Right event?

It has been a big day for us both. For opposite reasons. My highlight seeing Kylie perform. That was fantastic. Such a show.

Nah just stuff I have to do around the house.

What about you?

@Captain24 I'll only say the initials but FOM.

I'm glad you had that highlight today and that you got to watch it.

Tomorrow I have the mental health team coming out in the afternoon and obviously the usual routine after.

Wow!!!!! @MissGremlin

Are you stalking me! 😂

I hope that goes well. Hoping that you might just get something to help.

aahh. The usual.

Im going to bed.

I hope you sleep well.

Goodnight.

@Captain24 bahaha no definitely not 😂. It was just random that it came up in a Facebook thing!

I really hope they can do something to help.

I hope you get a good sleep sweetheart. Chat to you tomorrow ❤️.

Still freaking me out that something out here was on your Facebook feed all the way over there and you could work it out! @MissGremlin

I hope you are ok.

@Captain24 I'm sorry that it's freaking you out sweet. It wasn't anyone I know, just a random post and I put 2 and 2 together as you said there was an event on in town.

It was a crappy night. But I'm awake and about to make myself a cuppa after I've fed Casper. How are you feeling sweet?

Sorry for the crappy night. @MissGremlin Im glad you have Casper.

Im not doing well. I’ve gone back to bed. This time because I want to not because I need to. I know what I have to do but just can’t make myself do it.

Don’t worry about me though. I just may be very quiet today. I’m sorry.

Hopefully you have someone to talk to like nala.. I’ve seen you are back on your thread but like last time I’m staying away from it so you have free space here. No mods come here now though! 😂 I was surprised to see auntglow last night. But I was pretty angry with sane. But she never responded to me in the end anyway. At least I don’t really have to watch what I say anymore! Which is a good thing. I will fly under the radar more.

@Captain24 I'm sorry that you're not doing well sweet. Letting yourself rest is perfectly ok and the things that need to be done can wait.

I'll always worry about you sweet, cos I care. If also ok to take time for yourself, just know that I'm here for you if you need me and when you're up for it ❤️.

I just didn't want to clog your thread up when I was struggling so much which is why I was posting in my thread. I still don't feel comfortable in there but oh well. It was nice to see AuntGlow here yesterday but it's sad that they aren't around much like they used to be. I know it was pretty intense for you last night, and I'm sorry that it was at that point for you. Sending you lots of love and hugs sweetheart ❤️.

I’m feeling really rough around the edges. I’m really lacking in motivation and my thoughts aren’t really good.

I have opened the doors and windows. I have put a load of washing on that’s not going to dry in today’s weather. I haven’t showered since I mowed all the lawns on Friday.

Im not eating properly. I know all the things I need to do but it’s so hard.

I haven’t bathed the dogs in 2 weeks. I haven’t walked them.

I'm feeling like a failure. I know where I need to be mentally but just can’t find my way right now. It’s going downhill pretty quickly. It’s overwhelming. It’s scaring me.

@Captain24 I'm sorry things are feeling so rough sweet and i can understand how it would be scary.

There's been alot of big changes in the past few weeks both physically and mentally so it's understandable that things are a bit all over the place right now.

You've done well to do the things you've done already, maybe for a bit of self care you could have a shower and even a bath?

I'm sitting with you sweet and sending love and hugs ❤️