I can’t cope

Really triggering @AuntGlow Its actually surprised me. I’m way more emotional these days and easily set off.

I just put my diamond art down for a bit and got rid of all of the rubbish on every bench in the kitchen, emptied the dishwasher and repacked it. I did the dishes and now I’ve put water on to boil and I’ve cleaned out the fridge. Now I’m about to sort out my meds for the week. Took a load of washing out of the machine and chucked it in the dryer and have put a load in to hang out in the morning.

so I guess you can say I put it to good use.

I still need soothing though. But I have music on and will have dinner in 10 minutes. Just pasta and cheese but it’s something. Not sure how much of it I’ll eat though as these weight loss injections are decreasing my appetite. Not sure what else to do.

Tgay sounds so awesome. I’ve never been there but not really interested. I’m more a wanting to go to Paris and London kind of girl. Definitely London first though and country England.

Im glad you had a great time and finally had a holiday. It puts a smile on my face knowing you got out and enjoyed yourself.

@Captain24 how are you feeling now sweet?

I’m sitting here sobbing watching home and away @MissGremlin

Mu emotions are all over the place.

@Captain24 awwww sweet, it's ok to let those emotions out. Sending you hugs ❤️.

I don’t like emotions @MissGremlin iy was better when I had none.

@Captain24 I can understand that sweet. It's still very new and it will take time adjust but know that every emotion and feeling has a reason for being there.

The sleeves of my pj’s are wet! @MissGremlin

Im feeling a little lost. A little alone. No one to talk to. I’m just the one who listens but nobody asks that actually means it. I put them first anyway and they have stuff going on and don’t need mine. I just want to have conversations with someone that doesn’t cost me $220 for 50 minutes.

It’s days like today that I’m really missing the old connections. The chatting with @tyme and @Jynx . I would really love one last conversation with tyme. I’m really grieving her. But they may have helped me understand and both knew me so well.

It’s not the same as having someone in my life though.

I know you are here and all but not in person. I hope I haven’t worded this the wrong way… please don’t think I don’t appreciate you as I really do and I’m so glad and lucky to have you.

@Captain24 oh sweet. I truly get how you feel. It's all well and good having people to talk to online but sometimes actually having someone in person can make all the difference.

I am here and i definitely care how you're feeling sweetheart. Sending you so much love and hugs ❤️.

Thanks for understanding. @MissGremlin

Im still sitting on the lounge. I should get up and go to bed. I’m tired. So much noise around though. They will be all drunk people from that event that was on this afternoon.

Imagine a small country town the two streets block of I’m only talking a block length each and they aren’t very big blocks… with thousands and thousands of people in it. There was probably more people than actually live in town! Well over 10 000 go every year. I went to the very first one and it was a fail and never went back but now it’s grown into a massive event.

I don’t go anywhere this weekend!

Anyway. I’m really sorry.. I haven’t even asked how you are going. I do care.

@Captain24 that would make for alot of noise. I was just reading about the event funnily enough, it sounds very full on for a small town. Can understand not going anywhere when it's on.

It's completely ok sweet, i know you care. It's been a big day for both of us. Do you have anything on tomorrow?