I can’t cope

Yeah. I think it’s a slow day. I’m not depressed or anything just really sad and struggling to find any energy or motivation. @MissGremlin I don’t know what’s with the bold?

I do feel like a really good friend though. I sent her a message this morning that was really nice. Maybe I’m not always such a bad person. That’s really hard to admit too.

2 is good.

If you need to sleep then just let your eyes close and be gentle

@Captain24 you're running on very little sleep and I'd imagine that would be making those emotions hit harder. Not sure why it did the bold thing, how weird.

You're an amazing friend sweet and definitely not a bad person at all. I can understand it being hard to admit but I'm proud of you for actually saying it.

I'm hoping I can get some rest before I have to go out after.

I've been laying on my lounge for 2 hours with my eyes closed but unable to sleep. I feel so weird, I'm not even sure how to describe it. My head is hurting, I'm dehydrated and I just feel blah. I'm safe, about to get up to take some pain relief and I have to head out soon.

Sorry @MissGremlin I went and laid down for a little bit but I’ve only just woken up.

@Captain24 totally ok sweet. How are you feeling?

I didn’t get out of bed so I went back to sleep. I’m out of bed now @MissGremlin I need to sort something out for dinner but I’m just thinking pasta and cheeses. I’ve eaten veggies for the last 6 days!

Im really cold! I’m beating myself up a little for wasting today. I should have got stuff done. My bed still isn’t even made! I’ve got a fasting ultrasound in the morning so I can’t eat, drink or smoke from midnight. So I was hoping to sleep until my alarm. So I wasn’t tempted by any of that. I just feel really over the place. I really just want to go back to bed.

How are you going?

@Captain24 nothing wrong with having pasta and cheese for dinner. You've done so well for eating veggies for the last 6 days.

Don't beat yourself up sweet, your body clearly needed the rest today. I'm sorry you're feeling all over the place.

I'm feeling very much the same but also really out of it, the last 4 days are catching up to me i think with what I've been doing to myself (I'm safe). I've got no appetite at the moment either and I'm so thirsty constantly but not wanting to have anything to drink so my mouth is dry. I've got nothing in me to do anything, I'm already sitting on my bed.

I figure the last few days of veggies it’s ok not to have them. @MissGremlin

Ueah. I guess I did. I guess we will just have to wait and see what tomorrow brings. Not much diamond art though.

Im sorry you feel like that and unable to eat or drink. Im hoping bed is going well for you.

@Captain24 it's definitely ok to take a break from them.

What's on for you tomorrow after the ultrasound sweet?

Bed really isn't feeling like a safe space at the moment and I'm not sure how to get it back to being one. I have my doctors appointment tomorrow, I'm really scared for it but I know I need to be honest with my doctor about what I've been doing. I'm safe, will be doing my diamond art soon.

I have to clean this house, I have a psych appointment at 2 and I need to at least start mowing this disgusting lawn. It’s snake season. @MissGremlin

Im sorry bed doesn’t feel safe. I hope you can get that feeling back. What time is your doctors appointment?