I can’t cope

That’s funny! @MissGremlin

Imonku have an hour to go and now I have a friend. She isn’t sitting next to me though so that’s a good thing.

The workshop guys are starting to come in again. 😢

I'll have a look at this tomorrow when I have finished everything. Probably in the late afternoon depending on when I sleep and stuff. Dad suggest sleeping the second I walk in the door and that way I could get at least 2 hours. I have no sheets or doona cover on the bed! I’ll see how I feel when I get home.

I had a really creepy text. I have this guy that’s been ringing me and messaging me. I have ignored all of it. So if after nearly 12 months you haven’t gotten a response you would think he would give up. A couple of weeks ago he just sent me his address. I ignored it. Today he sent ‘I hope your ankle feels better’ Where did that come from? It’s a bit creepy. Does that mean he is watching me?

@Captain24 oh not the workshop guys coming in, sensory overload coming up and weird smells. I'm glad that you get to leave there soon so you don't have to be there when they come in again.

It would be good to get a little bit of sleep if you can, but see how you feel when you get home.

Oh that's really creepy. Is it anyone you actually know or maybe someone you know knows him and has talked to him? That'd make me so uncomfortable just knowing and thinking that.

The overload is happening!!! It’s not quite as bad as the guy that was playing his phone and laughing at it isn’t here yet! @MissGremlin

I think dad has the right idea. I’ll see. Sometimes I finish and I’m wide awake.

I know him from when I use to work with him but no one I know knows him.

Im about to start work.

Talk tomorrow

@Captain24 hope the night goes well sweet. Thinking of you ❤️.

I came home at 2:30 and had some sleep on and off until I fed Pix. I’m really not feeling it today. I just want to curl up in bed and stay there. I would only I have the funeral and can’t let my friend down. I’ve just got nothing today.

Morning @Captain24 sweet, I'm sorry you're not feeling it today. I hope the funeral goes ok and that you can get some rest after. Sending lots of love and hugs ❤️.

I’m home from the funeral @MissGremlin

My friend was really happy to see me and I saw one of her brothers as well. I didn’t see the other one. I didn’t see my friends mum either. I just told my friend to tell her I’m thinking of her.

When the service was finished my friend came up to me as I was standing at the back so she could have a breather from people. She asked me if I had seen her daughter I felt really bad and nearly cried but I had to tell her no. It’s absolutely crushed her. My friend sent me home after I told her I finished work this morning but with a parting comment of we will do lunch real soon. I’m going to book it in for next week. She really needs a friend around her right now with losing her nan who she was extremely close to and her issues with her daughter.

Mum had a doctors appointment today. She had an ultrasound done on her good leg and the doctor said she would call with the results but she actually had to go in so that doesn’t sound real good. Mum is on a polio meeting at the moment so I have to wait for that to finish to hear how she went.

Im feeling really flat and sad.

How are you going?

@Captain24 I'm really glad that you were able to be there for your friend today, it sounds like she is having such a tough time which is understandable. I think having lunch with her would be a very much needed thing for her and even you.

That does sound worrying with your mum, I hope she's ok.

I'm sorry you're feeling flat and sad sweet, sending you hugs ❤️.

I'm feeling the same, I'm completely exhausted and really having to fight hard against the thoughts/urges. I'm safe for now, laying on my lounge with Casper. I did a bit of diamond art earlier on the one with the dodgy squares, I have 2 more rows of sections to go.

I think the day has just been a bit rough. I’ve got things I need to get off the lounge to do. Like put the sheets and doona cover back on my bed. I slept without them this morning as I was stuffing around putting them on! @MissGremlin

She what happens with mum.

Im glad you are safe and with Casper. I’m happy that you did the dodgy one. Only 2 rows to go sounds good. Time consuming but good. It means you are getting there!

I might try and do my housework list for today and then if I have time I’ll finish that one I did at work.

@Captain24 it definitely sounds like it. Maybe just take things one step at a time today sweet and allow yourself to rest if you need to.

It's getting there, just takes forever, but I got 2 sections done this morning.

I'm laying here almost falling asleep.