I can’t cope

It was good to be able to chat. I’ve just had dinner and I’m about to go and jump in a truck until 5 @MissGremlin

Maybe we can chat tomorrow night if my night is the same. I have 28 toes left in that diamond art. So I’ll do a section of 14 and hopefully complete that section tomorrow night then it’ll nearly be done.

Im hoping you are able to find some rest tonight. I’m usually asleep and you’re usually awake.

Let’s swap for the tonight and tomorrow night!

Hope you sleep well.

@Captain24 hope the rest of your shift goes smoothly sweet.

Not much more to go if it at all!

Take care of yourself sweetheart ❤️.

I'm so scared to go to bed, the last 2 nights things have happened when I have, I've lost control and now bed doesn't feel safe. I don't know how to get it back to feeling safe, if it's at all possible. I'm tired but I'm sitting on my lounge cos I fear the same thing will happen again if I go to bed. I've tried so hard to reach out for support, I tried my doctor, support worker, several services but noone will help me, my doctor and support worker never even replied. I feel so let down by everyone, I feel like i don't matter, it feels like everyone wants me to go through with things so they don't have to put up with me anymore. It hurts so much to feel like you're nothing to anyone. I just needed to get this out, to feel heard and to not feel so alone.

I'm safe for the moment, sitting on my lounge with shrek on and doing my diamond art.

I’m really sorry you’re feeling so scared and let down right now @MissGremlin. It sounds incredibly painful to have reached out to so many people for support and feel like nobody has heard you or responded

I’m glad you’ve found a little bit of comfort in having Shrek on and doing your diamond art, and that you’re safe for the moment. You do matter, and you deserve support. Were you able to get some more sleep? 💛

@Nala2022 I haven't sleigh at all. Things really aren't ok here ('m safe).

It sounds like you’ve had such a difficult and exhausting night, and I can understand why you’re feeling like things aren’t okay @MissGremlin

I’m glad you’ve told us and that you’re safe at the moment. Please keep taking things moment by moment and stay with whatever is helping you feel a little safer right now

If that changes and you feel you may not be able to keep yourself safe, please reach out for immediate support by calling Lifeline on 13 11 14, or 000 if you’re in immediate danger

You matter 💛

I’m sorry it’s so scary for you @MissGremlin

Ive just done the ironing, about to wrap dads tiny present and start sorting out breakfasts and getting to bed.

Please know that I’m thinking king of you

Hi @Nala2022 

Hi @Captain24 💛

How have you been?

okish @Nala2022 Im on light duties at work so I sit in a room with no one until some workshop guys come in for dinner. They overwhelm me. I eat my dinner at 11 and then drive a truck from then until 5 and get sent home! I’m doing diamond art while I’m sitting there so that has been helping with the tiredness and boredom!

Right now I’m really tired. I’ve just fed the dogs breakfast and about to hopefully sleep until 4:30 when I have to get up and do it all again. I’ll get home in the morning and not be able to sleep as I have a funeral to go to. I’m hoping I can be in bed by 1!

Anyway that’s my whinge for the day! 😂

How are you going? How were your days off?

That’s definitely a lot to juggle @Captain24. No wonder you’re exhausted 😕

I’m glad the diamond art is helping a little with the boredom and keeping you occupied while you’re on light duties. Hopefully you can get some decent sleep before you have to do it all again. And I’m sorry you’ve got a funeral to attend too 💛

My days off were good. Just a couple of appointments and a family event yesterday, which was a really nice day out ☺️