I can’t cope

@Nala2022 I've only just woken up. Things are so bad here. I reached out to the crisis service, I was honest with them about what I'd done but they didn't care. I feel completely let down.

I'm safeish for now, going to try to make a cuppa.

Thankyou @Captain24 sweet ❤️.

I've only just woken up, I didn't get to sleep until 5.30am.

How are you feeling?

I’m really sorry @MissGremlin. It must have been incredibly hard to reach out, be honest about what happened, and then come away feeling like you weren’t heard or cared about. You deserve to feel listened to and supported.

For now, I hope you can take some comfort in your cuppa and just focus on getting through the next little while. You don’t need to solve everything today, just one moment at a time

I’m glad you told us how things are going 💛

Thankyou @Nala2022 sweet ❤️.

I got up, fed Casper and took him out to the toilet then made my cuppa and sat back in bed to drink it. I can't stand without almost passing out, my heart rate spikes and I get so dizzy then feel everything start to go dark and my hearing goes all fuzzy 😞. I need to stop doing this to myself but I don't know how, I'm so desperate for relief that my brain has switched to doing whatever I can to get it even if it's dangerous. I'm trying so hard to take it one moment at a time, but it feels like thats all I ever do.

I'm safe for the moment, laying in bed cuddling Casper.

If you’re still having the dizzy spells and feeling like you might pass out, please consider getting some medical support, and if you feel you need urgent medical help, call 000. If you can, could someone you trust come over and stay with you? That sounds like a very scary thing to go through on your own, and I can really hear how desperate you are for some relief @MissGremlin

I’m glad you’re safe for the moment and that you’ve got Casper there for some cuddles

For now, just focus on cuddling Casper and getting through the next little while 💛

@Nala2022 whilst I know i need to be in hospital, it's also not possible. I only have one friend in person and she's not able to anyway. I don't even want anyone around, I truly want to disappear. Everything feels so heavy today (I'm safe).

I hear you @MissGremlin, and I’m sorry you’re carrying so much today. I can also understand that when you’re feeling this overwhelmed, the idea of having people around can feel like too much. Do you feel up for doing some diamond art today? Or maybe watching a comfort movie, just to give your mind a little break? 💛

@Nala2022 I've put ice age on and I'm just sitting on my lounge. I'm struggling to even stay awake. Not feeling like doing my diamond art today.

Ice Age is a good choice, I haven't watched that in ages. You don’t have to do your diamond art or anything else if you’re not feeling up to it. Just resting on the lounge and letting yourself be tired is okay too @MissGremlin 💛

Thankyou @Nala2022 sweet ❤️.