I can’t cope

@Captain24 i bet it was good doing something but it sucks that you don't get paid for those extra 2 hours.

Oh no, that's the worst when the weather changes suddenly. Hoping the things you need dry do so that you can iron them in the morning.

My day has been hell, every service has failed me (I'm safe).

Today should have been my beautiful girl Laylah's 5th birthday. My heart is completely broken, not a day goes by that I don't think of her. I've been trying so hard to hold myself together but I just can't anymore, I'm too broken and there's too many pieces to put back together (I'm safe).

Anyway happy 5th birthday to my precious Laylah, miss you more than words can say ❤️🧡💛💚💙🩷💜.

I’m sorry everyone has failed you today @MissGremlin

Oh.. happy birthday Layla 😢 That’s such a hard day for you.

You may feel broken but you’re not. I know that’s not what you think right now though.

Thankyou @Captain24 sweet ❤️.

How is your diamond art going? The one with the wrong size dots? @MissGremlin 

@Captain24 i haven't done any of it for a few days. I've been working on another one. I've barely been able to focus, my brain is a mess. I sit with my diamond art in front of me but I'll completely zone out. I'm safe, sitting watching a movie and I have my diamond art with me. Casper hasn't settled all day, he will sit in front of me and whine. He won't leave my side at all.

What’s the other one? Is it nice and bright? @MissGremlin

Sorry Casper won’t settle. It’s annoying when they are like that. Hope he settles soon for you.

I get the zoning out. I am too at the moment.

Fair enough when your head is already a mess to leave that one for a bit. To frustrating. This one is annoying me as it’s not really sticky so some of the dots keep moving.

@Captain24 it's not overly bright but it's one i wanted to do.

I know he can pick up on what's going on with my body cos of what I've been doing but it's frustrating (I'm safe).

The zoning out makes it hard to do things. It took me 2½ hours yesterday of remembering but then forgetting to finally turn the dryer back on.

Oh that's so annoying, I had that one like that, where I had to seal each section at a time.

That’s good that you wanted to do it! @MissGremlin

They do know but it can be hard at the same time. Jett missed me when I’m on night shift and all he does is want to be picked up and give me non-stop kisses. It’s hard to get kisses out of him. Then when I sit on the lounge to try and eat breakfast they are climbing all over me. That’s really annoying too but it’s just because they miss me. So I can’t yell at them. I’m guessing it’s the similar with Casper. He just wants to be with you.

Hahaha.. I do that but mine is ADHD!

I remember that one. I can’t bring sealer to work though. I’ll have to seal it straight away when it’s finished though.

@Captain24 awwww they would definitely miss you when you're on night shift. What is it with male dog's being so Affectionate 😂. Casper is never far anyway but the last couple of days he's been glued to me, lays on top of me when I'm sleeping or laying down, is pressed right up against me when I'm sitting anywhere.

I have no doubt that mines ADHD aswell, but the current mental state doesn't help (I'm safe).

Yeah that makes it harder not being able to seal it at work but hopefully once you do get to it will turn out ok.