I can’t cope

@Captain24 one would hope he wouldn't be hungry for a while, maybe smelly later though 😂.

The sound of people eating chips and the packets crunching, ugh, just no 😂.

I'm too scared to be let down. If I don't try then I can't be hurt, right?

Yeah.. I’m glad I’m not working with him! @MissGremlin 😜

I guess I understand that feeling of just giving up. But I think it’s more self paced and tailored to your needs. I don’t know I’ve never done it. I was just thinking it was something for a bit.

@Captain24 but again, it's only short term and then leaves me with no support after. I need long term support if I'm going to survive this (I'm safe). I simply can't do it alone, God knows I've tried so hard already.

I was hoping short term may be at least something @MissGremlin

Im just about to eat and then I’m hopping in a truck that I can’t drive drive! Then I’m staying in it until the end of shift at 5!!!

@Captain24 I'm so worried about you trying to drive a truck, I don't even know why they're putting you in one with your ankle still being injured. Please be careful sweet, I'm thinking of you ❤️.

They swapped me and put me in the truck that I can drive! So that was good but I had to drive a car out there and they are manual! My foot hurt in the clutch. I just kept it in third gear most of the way! @MissGremlin

It was good to be doing something though, especially at 2:30 when I started to get tired. That left pretty quickly though so that was good. I was wide awake driving home as I finished 2 hours earlier than I normally do.

I put a load of washing in the machine last night and I’ve just hung it out. My work clothes are washing and then I’ll hang them out too. Trying to talk myself into doing the ironing while I wait for breakfast time to come around. I’m getting a bit tired now though!

I hope you got some a sleep last night. I hope you are ok?

I’ve done my notes for this morning and it’s still an hour until I can go to bed. I’m so tired and angry 😡

Everything is ready as can be for work tonight. But I really just want to go to bed. I’m really moody. I feel so angry. I want to throw things. I am safe and I wouldn’t do that but that’s the feeling I have.

Breakfast and a nice long shower has helped me calm down a little. I put the anger

to good use and cleaned half the kitchen. I still feel pretty wild just not as bad as before. I’m going to give them their breakfast early so I can go to bed

I know I’ve been annoying but I just needed somewhere to help with my anger. Just somewhere to get it out.

@Captain24 I'm really glad they swapped you to another truck, can understand your foot hurting with driving a manual car. Hoping it hasn't aggravated it more and delay the healing process.

That's good that you got to finish early, though it sounds like it's been a pretty tough morning for you. You've done so well to get things done and calm that anger down yourself though sweet, I'm proud of you for pushing through it.

Hope you're able to get a good rest today ❤️.

I’m glad they swapped me to but it was good doing something for the last 6 hours! @MissGremlin

I don’t get paid for those 2 extra hours which sucks.

I slept pretty well but you know all that washing I did this morning? I did it because it was supposed to to be 27 today and I thought it would all dry! No… we had a massive storm with rain and 96 km/hr winds! My washing is wet and was all over the ground! I’m hoping my work clothes dry over night. So I can iron them in the morning but I guess the others won’t dry!

How was your day?