I can’t cope

@Captain24 enjoy your shower sweet. Night night, sending lots of love and hugs ❤️.

I’m awake early and so tired. I think I have too much on my mind and it’s disturbing me. My brain is exhausted. It hurts to think. That sounds dumb I know but that’s what it feels like.

@Captain24 Good morning Captain *insert salute*

I'm here with you...up early today too. I hear you. Sometimes I feel like the early morning brain can be the worst. I'm like "Can we just get up and make coffee first?!" Gosh...yes. Exhausting.

I pop on a morning meditation, or prayer thing on YouTube sometimes as I get up and get the day started. It helps me listening to something else, something potentially uplifting/comforting/soothing.

Might not be your thing but I thought I'd just say hello and share with you.

Sending you all my best...I hope that first coffee hits the spot (you drink coffee?)

Hhxx

Hey @hopeful_hannah

Love the salute! 😂 never though of that before and no one else ever has. It’s actually a name my family have called me since birth!

I can’t do meditation, never thought of a prayer thing though. But you did remind me to put my music on.

I don’t drink coffee but does a cigarette and energy drink work! 😂

Ive got a lot going on health wise. All safe stuff just a lot to work out. But I’m getting a sleep apnea machine today so that should help the sleep situation. I’m really nervous though. I’m scared of the cost! But once it’s done that is one thing ticked off out of my head. Then I need to chat to 2 friends that are on weight loss injections to see what to do there. I’m trying to take it one step at a time!

How did your coffee go down?

@Captain24 glad you got a chuckle. I'm smiling :-P

100% Energy drink and ciggy is valid...ha! Whatever works baaaaby!

The prayer thing is really nice..the voices are often really smooth and soothing, and the messages feel supportive and hopeful. Music YES...don't forget that, so useful and powerful hey?

Yeah I hear you about your health stuff. I can imagine it can be really overwhelming because it's daily and constant. I hope everything works out for you today. Yep...one step at a time, one thing at a time, sometimes just one moment at a time!

Coffee didn't quuuuuuite hit the spot! I think I might need another!

Oh… it worked! 😂 @hopeful_hannah Some mindfulness plus i sat out in the sun!

I might have a browse around one day. Music is helping though. It’s 90’s stuff so has memories attach to some songs!

There is just so many decisions to make. Do I see my dietitian before I see the doctor? Do I see the doctor and then make and appointment? Mum has been really helpful to talk through it though. Which is unusual as she is good in physically helping but as for the caring side not so great.

You most definitely need another coffee. Maybe this in will slide down smoother. You’re up early and working you deserve it!

How are you other than the failing coffee!

@Captain24 Gah! Decision fatigue! No wonder you're exhausted! Ha!

It will aaaaalllll work itself out. Just one thing at a time. I mean we can literally only do one thing at a time can't we? Nice that your Mum is being cool and helpful.

Yeah I will do that coffee now and I think I will pop on some porridge soon too.

I'm ok. My top bridge of teeth broke the other day so I've been toothless up there for a couple days. It's been really confronting but it's teaching me acceptance and surrender. Dentist tomorrow. I'm a little scared too. But I'm hopeful_hannah (lol) I am hopeful and trust it will all work out.

So yeah....*exhale* it's aalllll AOK for a Monday morning!

Breakfast? What's your go to?

So many!!! @hopeful_hannah

It will all work out and I’ll be a new me in about 6 months. Hopefully. Hopefully I’ll be healthy and feel better within myself. Just starting the process hard. My mental health is in a better condition so I think all of it together will be a good thing.

That would be confronting. I’m not sure how I’d feel about that. I’m glad you are learning from it though. Eeeww the dentist. I haven’t been to one for about 15 years! Oops! 😂 Hopefully your name will get you through it.

Making another coffee sounds good and porridge

I’m glad other than that you are all a ok

My breakfast is very interesting and won’t be changing with my upcoming new lifestyle. I haven’t 4 weetbix. Put boiling water on them and make them all soggy and then add a third of a can of condensed milk on them! Warming and heartfelt and extremely yummy!

Your breakfast sounds AMAZING like something I must try (at least once...ha!) I can imagine how smooth and creamy and delicious sweet that would be. My tender mouth would really appreciate that I reckon. Ooft!

It is great. If I have toast or something I get really hungry. When I’m working I have breakfast around 5 am and don’t get lunch until between 11-1. It’s a really long time. My dietitian said about eggs on toast but it’s to early in the morning to get up earlier to cook that! Then I don’t get home until just before 9pm so I’m not cooking dinner at that time! I try and make dinners on my last day off to reheat on my days shifts. But the weetbix lasts the longest. I take snacks but they aren’t healthy so I’m guessing I have to change that too! 😂 @hopeful_hannah

I have an extremely sweet tooth but I do recommend you try it… well… maybe not as you may like it and curse me when you have it often! 😂