I can’t cope

I’m not sure I can cover it @MissGremlin It’ll have to be a try and see. Things will be really tight!

Oh well. At least it’s done! I can imagine that I would get quite noisy’

Ive finally finished that section, had some lunch and about to start the next one. I’m so tired though! The letters are running into each other.

@Captain24 how are you doing sweet?

I’ve just made another life changing decision. If my life is having a complete overhaul. I’m going to ask for tablets to quit smoking! I may as well fix everything at once. That will also give me the money for the weight loss injections. If I can do it this time it’ll save me $200 a fortnight even with the injections, that means I can afford my dietitian. In 6-12 months I could actually be healthy. Sleeping well, eating well, lower cholesterol and maybe get rid of my fatty liver. It’s a goal I guess. I’ve always failed it before but I’ll have extra help this time. My MH is sometimes in a better place so that may help too. All these changes could improve it even more or make it a rocky road. But my psych will help me navigate it all.

It’s been a big few days and lots of thinking and how to go about it all. Maybe my doctor telling me I’m fat and lazy has actually been the wake up call I needed

@Captain24 I'm sorry if I've upset you somehow sweet.

No you haven’t. Your post must have come through when I was writing mine. I didn’t see it @MissGremlin

How are you going?

@Captain24 I'm really struggling, my emotions are all over the place and I can't get the thoughts to stop. I've been trying so hard to keep busy since I got up but it's not even helping to settle things. I keep getting really emotional and crying but I don't know why. I've cleaned the bathroom sink, stove, cleaned the kitchen sink and done the dishes, wiped the bench down, loaded the washing machine for tomorrow, diamond art, had dinner, fed Casper and took him out to the toilet.

I'm safe for now, I've already done my teeth and hair for bed so I just need to put my pjs on.

Hey @MissGremlin, it sounds like you are going through a tough time right now, also sounds like you are doing a great job of managing these emotions too. We appreciate you letting the community know that you are safe for now.

I encourage you to stay connected with the community and share your strenghts like all the distraction you gave yourself doing all those chores around the home. If you do feel like you need a little extra support I encourage to reach out to your wider support network and contact Lifeline 13 11 14 Lifeline Chat and connect with them.

You might be ready for bed getting ready to put on your pjs so I hope you get some rest and a good nights sleep!

Take care

RiverSeal

Hello @RiverSeal, thankyou. I'm trying so hard to keep things at bay but I can't just keep going with the housework either. I'm physically exhausted after doing the things i have already. I'm hoping once I hop into bed and sit with my diamond art that things might settle a bit.

Thankyou, I'm hoping I can get a decent sleep tonight.

Hope you're doing well ❤️.

I’m sorry @MissGremlin that must be so hard.

You have been busy. I’m glad you have tried to distract from your thoughts.

Have you washed your face with freezing cold water? Been outside in the cold?

If those sleeping tablets have been used for antidepressants then that could also be a reason. That could account for the emotions. They have had that effect in the past on me.

Put your pj’s on and jump into bed if everything else is done.

Your mystery diamond art is there. Will it take some focus off? You still need to try and work out what it is!

@Captain24 I took Casper outside to the toilet but it's not overly cold here, I've been warm cos I'm doing everything aswell.

The tablets are more for fibromyalgia but help with sleep, or they're meant to. The dose isn't high enough to act as an antidepressant, but I guess it's still possible.

I'm just waiting for it to be bedtime here. I'm hoping the diamond art will help once I sit down with it. My eyes are feeling really heavy so I'm not even sure how much I'll get done, I might actually be able to have an early night.