I can’t cope

@Captain24 yes it sucks doing one that you know won't work out. That's actually why I've quit on 3 of them. This one is just annoying cos the gems are uneven sizes so I need to pick specific ones and avoid others.

Another distraction, a silly blood nose.

Doctors surgeries are always late cos all it takes is one person to throw the whole day off.

Oh that’s annoying! Are they meant to be different sizes? @MissGremlin

Bugger on the blood nose.do you get them often?

Still waiting! I’m going to hold him up I think unless he pressures me for time.

@Captain24 they are meant to be the same size but they are very uneven and not cut properly.

I get them everyday and sometimes multiple times a day.

Oh that sucks, the waiting game makes it worse with the anxiety aswell.

That’s a shit @MissGremlin just to drag it out longer!

That’s a lot. I remember getting a blood nose once. It was around 2002 and I didn’t know what to do so I called mum. I lived 4 hours away! 😂

He is now an hour late. He could be leaving me until last to talk more as o haven’t seen him. The time I didn’t get out until late he asked if he could call in the guy behind me first. We actually chat for a while. He is good with my mental health most of the time but misses the mark a bit. Pushing to hard to fast!

@Captain24 yes! It's driving me nuts.

Haha oh I just stick a tissue up it these days 😂.

An hour late is alot, hoping he calls you soon. It's hard when it comes to mental health as not everyone gets it.

He called and now I’m crying. @MissGremlin

Ill reply in a bit.

@Captain24 oh sweet, I'm here for you whenever you're ready. Sending you lots of love and hugs ❤️

I’ve just spiralled really quickly and out of control. @MissGremlin

The only thing he said is that I have to lose weight. I can’t lose weight it’s the medication. Yes I can eat better but I’ll never get much off. It doesn’t fix my sleep now though. He told me a machine may help. But it’s a waste of money. The weight loss triggers my ED.

Im a mess I’m tired as I didn’t sleep today. I couldn’t get scans on my ankle, just told to lose weight and it’ll fix everything in my life.

I cant do it. So I don’t have much of a life. Sleep all the time and walk with a limp. Why even bother.

@Captain24 oh sweetheart, I'm sorry that's all he has said to do. I understand that any extra weight we carry can impact many aspects of our health (heck i need to lose alot myself) but it's not always easy especially when antidepressants and other medications make us gain weight.

For right now let's try to bring things back to an easier level to manage. You've gotten through the phone call and I know how anxious you were for that. You've done really well today to not have a sleep even though I know you are tired, it's getting closer to bedtime so there's not much more of the day left to get through.

We're going to work through this one little step at a time but tonight let's just focus on what's left to do before bedtime.

I just wrote a response and it logged me out. I’m not even good enough for the forums. @MissGremlin Im just useless and nothinh