I can’t cope

I get it. One night of sleep doesn’t change much but my fingers are crossed that it was the medication and there are more nights to come. @MissGremlin Sorry.. I keep holding on to hope for you.

I’ll finish the section I’m doing mid afternoon and then hopefully finish the next section before bed. My aim for the next few days is getting 2 sections done a day. Hopefully that works out! Then it’ll be done quickly. I’ll take a photo of it tomorrow and show you how bad it is!

How much longer do you have on this one?

@Captain24 I'm not even sure if it was the medication but I'm struggling to be awake, I feel so out of it (I'm safe).

That sounds like a good plan, it's just such a shame that it's going to be so much time wasted when it's not going to turn out.

I've only done one row of sections, only 20 dots across.

Maybe it is the tablets. You should get use to them though. Hopefully! Rest as much as you need or as much as possible. @MissGremlin are you feeling different to normal?

Oh you have ages to go!!! 😂 Is it 30x40?

We have lots of time over the next few days! Well when you have time. I have nothing else on.

Im starving considering I’ve been having lunch the last 2 days. Maybe I’ll find something to have when I get home.

@Captain24 I do feel different but not in a good way (I'm safe). I'm trying to do a bit of cleaning, there's stuff that's been put on my table and it's making me feel uncomfortable sitting here cos its all cluttered when I had it clear.

Yes it's 30×40 I'm actually regretting starting this one as I'm more interested in the mystery one.

We do.

I'm feeling hungry but don't have the energy to make the bacon and egg muffins i brought. It's good that you've been having lunch.

It may settle. @MissGremlin. when I first started the antipsychotics they have me zonked out like a zombie and now it’s fine. Just need to get my body use to it. It did take a little bit too. Do you need to say you’re safe? Like is that a consideration or just being clear?

Can you clear some of it or are others using it?

I’ve just gotten home and my foot is strapped. I like it strapped! It feels so much better and safer.

its ok. You will get there with them. How’s the mystery one going? How far through it are you?

@Captain24 this medication used to be used as an antidepressant but it's not anymore but gets used for other things. It may take time to get used to it. The I'm safe is necessary given an experience on here that resulted in a long time away when something was taken out of context. I'm sorry if it's annoying to see it all the time but I panic if I'm not clear about it cos I don't need to lose this space.

I've just cleared it all and done 2 loads of washing, made lunches, done dishes and wiped the bench down. I'm waiting for the 2nd load to finish so I can hang it out.

I'm glad that it's strapped and feels better when it is.

The mystery one I'm about half way up the 2nd row of sections. Still slow progress but I'm enjoying that one.

Aaahhh. That’s the zombie feeling! @MissGremlin

The safe doesn’t annoy me at all. I was just checking in when you said you felt different. Just caring! 😜

That must feel better. Getting everything out of the way!

My next physio appointment is on Wednesday at 7:30 so I will be late to work. Bonus!!!! I don’t have to get up at 4:30!!!

Im glad you are enjoying it. Can you tell what it is yet? Are you not enjoying this one or is it just you want to do Layla?

I’ve had lunch and just sat back down! I’m free until he rings after 4 sometimes. He is never in time!

@Captain24 I'm glad it doesn't annoy you. Thankyou sweet ❤️.

I'm about to hang up the washing as it finished then I'm hoping I can sit and do diamond art with you.

Bonus to not having to be up at 4.30.

I still have no idea what it is. I'm keen to do Laylah's one though aswell.

What did you have for lunch?

It’s all good. Just times I worry. @MissGremlin

Yay!!! Come and join me!!!

It’s so hard when you have one you are separate to do but have to wait. I have a cheap one that I really want to do but it has to wait until I’ve sorted these 2 out. Or if I’m on light duties next block, I’ll take it with me and do it at work while I’m sitting around alone!

I just had 2 minute noodles. I’m not eating properly but at least it’s 3 meals. I have to start somewhere.

@Captain24 you've gotten to know me pretty well here and can tell when I'm struggling, when things really aren't ok.

I'm sitting with my diamond art now, i was going to make food but I'm not really hungry.

Yes it's hard and annoying lol. I have so many i want to do but when it comes to choosing which one to do then i struggle. Would be cool to take it to work to do if you're on light duties.

It's better than not eating at all, it's still food!