I can’t cope

Sounds good! @MissGremlin that’s a perfect plan. I didn’t want to

leave you gayer saying I would do this! I really need the section finished so I can start in the other one. I’m struggling to leave it I dished as it is but definitely not leaving an unfinished section. My autism would cope!

Are you doing the mystery one? You have to tell me when you work it out that you know what it is just not tell me what it actually is. Are you liking it so far?

@Captain24 I'm so glad we can sit here for a bit together doing diamond art, though I do understand the need for rest aswell.

Yeah i struggle to leave sections unfinished, it really messes with me.

I'm working on the other one at the moment, didn't want to bring my tray out from the bedroom being that i have the support worker coming. So I'm sitting at my table. I still have no idea what it is, but it looks pretty at least lol.

You’re half an hour behind aren’t you? @MissGremlin

Im ok to leave the sections unfinished while I’m working on it as I do such big sections. I do love it when I finish it in a day though and can start the next day fresh. This one was about 1/3 through and I e left it since Sunday but that’s ok as I was working on it. But I’m totally not leaving the sections unfinished while unfinished to pack it away.

Im glad it looks pretty. I really want to start mine but I need to finish these two first and there is another one that I really want to do. It’s a bit hard! Then.. there is a 3D puzzle I want to do and I need to write a list of the ones I’ve got so when I go to spotlight I can get different ones! So much to do!!! Not enough hours!! If I didn’t need to sleep all the time I would have more time!

@Captain24 I'll reply properly later sweet as my support worker will be here any minute. I think it's half an hour behind, it's 11.02am here.

I'm hoping you can get some much needed and deserved rest soon sweet. Lots of love and hugs to you ❤️.

Yeah. That’s half an hour. I hope it goes well @MissGremlin

Talk after I wake up

I had and hour and a half sleep and feel good. I’ve cooked schnitzel’s and I’m about to have a chicken schnitzel Turkish roll for lunch! Made an effort. I woke up because a shower can across and it woke me and then I was starving so I thought I should make an effort @MissGremlin

How did your support worker go? Did you get any rest?

@Captain24 I dozed off briefly but woke up a few minutes ago in a full on panic after a nightmare 😞. I keep seeing the nightmare play out over and over again, it's too much. I'm safe, I'm trying to calm myself down and I have to get ready to head out in a little bit.

You've done amazing sweet and that sounds so yummy 😋. I made a burger for breakfast it was a beef one with sail and pepper, I did onions, egg and cheese.

My support worker has been extended, we're going to work on looking into community housing and also trying to get longer term support.

That’s so frustrating @MissGremlin.

slow deep breaths. Feel Caspers hair. Put you hand in his heart.

That is good. At least it’s been recognised that you need support, finally. I hope community housing works out. Isn’t that what you were trying before though?

@Captain24 thankyou sweet, I'm trying to focus on Caspers breathing. Cos of the nature of the nightmare I caved and took my routine medication (only recommended doses) after I hadn't taken it both yesterday morning and this morning, I feel like a failure.

It is good just hoping we can actually find longer term support. The community housing apparently i wasn't registered for even though I know for a fact I was and have been for over 15 years as the last 3 years I've made contact with the places who have all said that I we registered with them. So it doesn't quite make sense.

That’s ok. It’s not a failure. You didn’t take them until you actually needed them. That in my book is how it’s suppose to work! 😜 There is no failure just comfort. I got addicted to one of my medications and while I didn’t help my mood it let me sleep all day when I didn’t want to face the world. It was hard to come off. @MissGremlin

Oh well.. let’s just see what happens. The wait around here is a long time. But if they can help put you on the list again and maybe boost you up it may help.

I really hope that they can find you longer term support. My fingers are crossed 🤞 for you. I know it’s not worth getting your hopes up for with all your experience but maybe this time it may work out. She has seen you and see’s what is happening for you.