I can’t cope

That’s not silly at all, I’m very much the same. Although my curiosity usually gets the better of me, so I’ll give the series a go and see what I think haha

I’m really sorry to hear that you might be losing that support, especially when it feels like it’s the main support you have at the moment. It’s completely understandable to feel that way when something that has been helping you might be coming to an end. Do you know if your support worker is able to help you transition to any other supports or make any referrals before they finish up?

Sometimes we really do need those reminders. When we’re having a hard time, it can be so difficult to think of ways to look after ourselves or cope, so taking things one step at a time is enough 💛

Thank you @MissGremlin 😊 you’re so kind. I do try to do one or two little self-care things each day, which definitely helps

That honestly looks so good! Aww, you would have made the little ones day. Well done! It’s still very clear in the photo, but I swear phone cameras always seem to distort things or make colours look different 😂

@Nala2022 haha you'll have to let me know what it's like if you do watch it.

She closes off on Friday, so there's not even any time. Our goal was to try to get the housing category changed which we failed at. As for other supports there's just nothing as I've already tried every service possible. Even the psychology place won't return my call so it's clear that they don't want to help me.

We do, especially when things are rough and we often tend to punish ourselves.

You're so welcome sweet, I'm glad that you take the time to do some self care things each day and that they help ☺️.

Thankyou sweet ❤️. Phone cameras have a mind of their own 😂.

Morning @Captain24 sweet, how are you feeling? ❤️

Will do 😊

I’m really sorry @MissGremlin ☹️ You’ve put so much effort into advocating for yourself and trying to get the support you need, so I can understand why this outcome feels so disappointing and exhausting, especially when your support worker is finishing so soon. It must be really frustrating to feel like you’ve tried so many avenues and are still struggling to find the support you need 💛

I know trying another psychologist could be an option, but I can also understand if that feels really daunting when you’ve already had such a hard time getting support. You don’t have to figure everything out all at once though, just getting through today is enough. Be gentle with yourself 💛

I have a lot of trauma too. It has taken a lot to work through that and it’s still there. Not being good enough, not allowed to be happy, not allowed to feel something is actually good, not allowed to feel proud.

I haven’t worked on any trauma as I’m not in a safe enough position to do it. But I’m slowly learning not to push back. Sitting there doing diamond art all day isn’t ok. I still haven’t told my mum that that’s all I do for fear of judgement!

Writing down those moments as they happen is a help. You will see how many little glimmers you see. Even when the guilt kicks in still write them down. I have a journal on my phone that I put them in. I had to find 3 things everyday but o gradually learnt that there was more than I actually realised. Just the smile that my dogs put on on my face even just a moment. I have 2 everyday and that’s how excited they are to have the meals. Pixie does these spins and jumps. Jet jumps up and down. It’s so cute the way they react. That’s as simple as in needs to be. @MissGremlin 

Hey @Nala2022

It’s definitely a big change. I even advocated for myself at work yesterday. Since I’m not allowed in the pit with my ankle all

im allowed to do is just sit around. So I asked for the 2 nights off on mental health grounds. I told them how I have been feeling for the last 4 weeks and that sitting around all night doing nothings and seeing nobody is not good for my mental health. They don’t allow people with injuries to take annual leave but the approved it on mental health grounds! I thanked my boss for it and told him how I’m feeling on my days off and he said he wants what I’m having! 😜 But he has been injured and had to sit through nights for many weeks so he understood. He said it really takes a toll on you.

With my sleep. I want to be able to get better quality sleep and not to need so much of it. I slept just under 10 hours and I am still so tired that I could go back to bed and sleep more. I’m not sure if it’s the sleep apnea or what ever has shown up in my bloods or a mix of both!

It’s a bit overcast today but the sun does peak through. We had a lot of rain yesterday and are suppose to have a little more today. But I’ve opened up everything anyway. It’s a little chilly but should warm up. That’s a shame that the sun affects you! I think this summer is going to be hotter but a couple of degrees so I’m not actually sure how I will go mowing the lawns in it but I’ll definitely give it a try. It might have to be mums one day and mine the next. Not both in a day.

How are you going today? I hope it’s all ok for you? Do you still look for glimmers and do self care stuff?

I’m really happy to hear your boss was so understanding and could empathise with you. It can be really tough to be honest about how you’re feeling, especially in a work setting, so well done for advocating for yourself!

I really hope you can get to the bottom of your sleep and start waking up feeling more refreshed. Hopefully your GP can help you work out what's going on and why you're still feeling so tired.

Same here, so much rain! I think the next few days are supposed to be a lot sunnier though 😊 Sounds like a good plan with the lawns, take it in turns and see how you go rather than trying to do both in one day. No need to push yourself in that heat haha

I’m doing well, thank you for asking 😊 I was so tired this morning, but that was my own fault because I got stuck watching a true crime show and stayed up way too late 😂

I do still look for little glimmers and try to do some self-care each day. I find that when I’m feeling low or anxious, sometimes I just need to sit with it for a little while, do what I need to do in that moment, and remind myself that the feeling will pass. That helps me not get too caught up in it

What does self-care look like for you lately @Captain24? 😊

@Nala2022 Sorry for the slow reply, I had to head out for my morning routine. It's a tad chilly outside here today, my car was all foggy 😂.

It's really frustrating, I've tried so hard to get the support I desperately need but I'm turned away from everywhere.

It's not even really an option to try another as this place was the only one that bulk bills completely and does telehealth, I can't afford to be out of pocket at all nor can I go in person to appointments 😞. I think for right now I just need to focus on getting through today, I'm already feeling overwhelmed and scared about losing the only support I have. It's just alot right now. I'm safe, I'm about to do my dishes and then make something to eat as I realised that I didn't last night.

@Captain24 all those things are so hard to feel aren't they? It's like we're not allowed to feel any happiness whatsoever no matter what form it comes in.

Can understand not being in a safe enough position to work on the trauma and also the fear of judgement. But you're not just doing diamond art all day, you're still taking those moments to sit in the sun, to listen to music, you still do your housework and you keep connected here.

I'm going to try to, we will see how I go. My moments will mostly be around Casper aswell, the silly things he does that make me laugh.

No need to apologise @MissGremlin. It is quite icy today! How did you go with your morning routine?

I’m really sorry, it sounds like there’s a lot weighing on you right now. Having so few options because of the cost and needing telehealth makes it even more difficult 😞

I think focusing on just getting through today is a good idea. You don’t need to figure everything out about your supports right now. Getting your dishes done and making something to eat sounds like a good place to start, especially since you didn’t get to eat last night. One little thing at a time 💛