I can’t cope

I’m sitting outside on the grass at the physio. I’ve rolled my ankle and it’s sprained. I’m waiting for a guy to come and pick me up. He had an appointment somewhere else in town and his takes ages!!! @MissGremlin

How are you going?

@Captain24 oh no, I'm sorry to hear sweet.

It's been a really hard day, I've got pain going through both my ears and can't sleep on either side without excruciating pain. My thoughts have been alot today but I'm too tired to do anything about them (I'm safe). I have my doctors appointment tomorrow morning. Currently sitting at my first destination and then have to go to the shops.

At least I’m getting mindfulness in! 😜 @MissGremlin

Im sorry it’s hard and that your ears are bad. I’ve never had an earache so don’t know what it’s like. I hope he can give you something tomorrow.

One down one to go! You’re nearly home!

I don’t think I’ll be home until the normal time. Im not allowed to walk on uneven ground which is the only way to get to a truck so I don’t know what the ‘f’ I’ll be doing for the next day and 2 nights! I haven’t had my lunch yet!

@Captain24 haha at least there's a bright side 😂.

This isn't even just an earache, it's severe pressure. Trying to roll over is excruciating and sends sharp pain through my ears and my head feels like it's going to explode. It's honestly horrible.

That sucks that you haven't even had lunch yet. I'm hoping they can give you something easy to do for the next few shifts. Sending love and hugs sweet ❤️

Hopefully. I’m not sitting around all nightshift doing nothing! @MissGremlin Ive got computer training that I can do tomorrow.

It’s really nice out in the sun. I look like a dickhead as I’m on one of the main stresses sitting on the grass near the footpath! But I’m ok with that!! 😂 It feels good!

I had an interesting night last night. I struggled to get to sleep and I kept waking up all the time worried that I had slept in. Yes it was broken sleep. But that’s how I use to start my block of work. I always had trouble sleeping and stressing about my alarm. It felt normal! I am tired though.

That sounds horrible. I’m sorry that that is happening for you? Have you had it before?

@Captain24 that would make the nights longer if you were sitting around doing nothing. At least you've got the computer training to do tomorrow.

Hey as long as you're enjoying it then that's all that matters. It doesn't matter what anyone else thinks.

It sounds like a rough night, hoping it's better tonight for you sweet.

I've had it happen alot over the years, I've been researching up about it and there's a thing called TMJ which also links into fibromyalgia. It could very much explain my jaw issues aswell.

I’ve just been texting the guy in charge of injuries and told him that I have just got my mental health stable and will not risk it by sitting around on nightshifts. @MissGremlin

It was a rough night but pretty normal for me over the last few years on this shift. So it’s actually a good thing!

That’s interesting. Maybe that’s something to look into. I don’t think there is much you can do about it though. But at least a name is something and work on the spot fires as they arise.

What’s for dinner tonight?

@Captain24 yeah sitting around wouldn't be a good idea. Did he respond with anything back?

I'm glad it's normal for you and a good thing.

Yeah there's not much that can be done about it but at least knowing what's going on might be able to then help with some things to ease the symptoms.

Dinner tonight is bolognase 😋

We are going to discuss it tomorrow apparently. @MissGremlin I offered to take annual leave instead of sitting around.

I reckon it would help. Having something to be able to work with.

Do you have all the stuff?

I still have over an hour to sit here!

@Captain24 that could be a possibility aswell.

Yeah then I might be able to find ways to get relief if I know what I'm dealing with. It's just unbearable to deal with.

Yes i do and I've just finished making it.

Sitting there waiting must be hard. I bet you'll be glad to get home.