I can’t cope

That’s horrible that you have to go through that almost every night ☹️ Yeah, earaches can be so painful. I really hope you get some answers soon @MissGremlin 💛

I hate when they take away something that you really love and enjoy too! It's so frustrating

It’s definitely part of their charm lol. Oh no, that sucks that you’re allergic! Dogs are the best, I agree. I would love a husky one day, but they shed SO much hair and are pretty high maintenance. Plus when they howl, it’s sooo loud and dramatic 😂

@Captain24 I hope it helps to sit in the sun for a bit.

Chicken schnitzel rolls sound yummy 😋.

There's nothing to apologise for sweet, it's ok to be feeling down today. Try to remember that it doesn't erase your progress, it's just a rough day and a day to be gentle with your wonderful self ❤️.

@Nala2022 fingers crossed i can get some answers. I have my sleep study appointment on Wednesday aswell.

It really annoys me, they were so popular aswell so it doesn't make sense really. It's also hard when one doesn't cope with change.

It doesn't stop me having kitty cuddles though, I just deal with the sneezing and itchy/puffy eyes later 😂. Huskies are gorgeous but yes so much hair! They are such dramatic dogs. I had an alaskan malamute here for a while (a friend couldn't look after her) and she was full of character, I would have kept her but she didn't get along with my other dogs. Casper is very vocal when he's happy, he grunts and groans while his whole butt is wiggling. He will talk (bark) and spin around in circles when you ask him if it's dinner or breakfast time 😂.

I’ve just come in and sitting down to it now @MissGremlin

My right hip is aching badly. There must be rain coming. It’s forecast for Tuesday but right now I need it sooner. It hurts to much. As soon as it starts to rain it’ll go away.

They are good. I just have the schnitzel, cheese and chilli sauce.

I feel like I have lost my progress. I feel like I have failed. I can’t even smile and I have been so happy and enjoying everything. Now I just want to go to bed, stay there and disappear. What a failure.

Sorry I haven’t even asked how you are going.

@Captain24 the aching hip sounds so painful, really hoping you get relief from it soon.

You're not a failure sweet, not at all. Remember that there's always going to be ups and downs and this is one of the downs, but you won't be stuck here forever. Can we try to shift things a little, take a moment to breathe and bring yourself back to a happy moment that you've had recently. Maybe it's when you've danced around and gotten funny looks from the dogs, or maybe it's when you've sat in the sun and felt connected. Those moments are real, they happened and they will again.

It's ok sweet, I'm still very tired and feeling fragile today. But we're here together and we will take today slowly and gently ❤️.

My fingers are crossed for you too @MissGremlin 🤞 I hope your sleep study appointment goes well too and that you can get some answers soon

Yep, it doesn’t make sense at all! I feel you though, sometimes it’s the little things that bring us some joy or comfort, so when those things are taken away it can be really tough

Haha yeah, it’s hard to resist the cuddles

Aww, those dogs are beautiful!! They’re so big and fluffy haha. It’s a shame you couldn’t keep her

It’s so cute when dogs show their enthusiasm, especially when it comes to food 😂

No relief until it rains! It’s been like it for many many years. @MissGremlin

I know. It’s just hard. I’ve put my music on softly hoping Jett is ok with it. But he did come straight outside with his tail between his legs. 😢

It’s so hard to go from so so so good to feeling down. I’m not crisis level or anything. Just really down. I’m trying to tell myself that it’s because I have work tomorrow. But my sleep is stressing me out with that too. I know you are the last person I should be talking to about too much sleep and still being so tired.

My schnitzels are cooked so I have to wait for them to cool down to make my rolls. Maybe if I just do little things at a time it will help. I’m not bathing the dogs though. I just don’t want to.

This section is a bit slow going at the moment but it’ll get quicker in about an hour.

@Captain24 that sounds so hard. Fingers crossed it rains soon.

Aww poor Jett, wonder why the music is making him unsettled.

I know it's so hard and it most probably is linked to going back to work tomorrow. Even though you're getting sleep, it's not quality. I'm really hoping when you see your doctor that you can get some answers and relief so you can sleep better.

Doing little things at a time sounds like a good idea, just one step at a time sweet. It's ok if you aren't up for bathing the dogs, it can wait.

I haven't even started yet. Dealing with what's going on here at the moment which is really overwhelming me and I want to disappear (I'm safe). About to put a load of washing in cos I forgot to do it yesterday, I can't wash everything though as it won't be dry by tomorrow so I'm very much feeling like a failure.

Thankyou @Nala2022 sweet❤️.

It is really tough as it was something I had every day and it brought comfort. Makes me want to write to the companies in protest 😂.

They are beautiful but alot of hard work. I'm just glad that she went to a beautiful home where she is very much loved and spoilt.

It is very cute, he always makes me laugh with his silly antics 😂.

I’m about to give them a bone each so that should keep them happy. @MissGremlin

Yeah just a step at a time.

You’re not a failure for not doing the washing. I really need to do some too but I’m not. I don’t have others though. It’ll just make more on pyjama day.

Snuggling with his little birdie.