I can’t cope

@Nala2022 it went badly, I'm absolutely crushed. Even my support worker is shocked 😞.

It's lucky I'm with my support worker at least for the next short bit of time cos I'm not in a good space. I'm hurting, I'm scared and I just needed this to go ok.

I'm safe for now, about to go back home to casper and I'll try to do my diamond art again.

I’m really sorry it didn’t go your way @MissGremlin ☹️ I can hear how crushed and scared you’re feeling, especially after hoping so much that this would go okay. I’m really glad you have your support worker with you for a little while longer while you’re going through this

I’m glad to hear you’re safe. Hopefully being back home with Casper and getting into some diamond art can give you a little bit of comfort and help ease some of the overwhelm 💛

@Nala2022 I'm home, my support worker is gone but on the way home she told me that the service closes off on me on Friday next week 😞. Just another blow to deal with today. I'm fighting back tears, I'm really trying to do my best but it's so hard.

I'm safe, I'm sitting outside at the moment, there was a bit of sun but it keeps disappearing.

I’m so sorry @MissGremlin, that would have been really hard to hear, especially after everything else you’ve had to deal with today. It’s okay if you need to cry, what you’re feeling is completely valid and it’s a lot to process all at once. You’re trying your best in a really difficult situation, and you don’t have to hold everything together right now

I’m glad you’re home and sitting outside, even if the sun keeps disappearing. Hopefully you can get a little bit of comfort from being outside and having Casper with you 💛

Thankyou @Nala2022 sweet ❤️.

Sorry to hear it all went pear shaped @MissGremlin. you just can’t catch a break.

@Captain24 I really can't and it's so unfair.

How are you doing sweet?

Hi MissGremlin,

I can hear that things feel very overwhelming for you right now. I appreciate you sharing your experiences during these vulnerable times. It is a sign of incredible strength.

What you are sharing makes sense and shows how strongly your body and thoughts are reacting, which can make coping feel challenging. I am glad to know that you are safe for now and waiting to speak with a service.

It is wonderful to hear that you are trying to stay with your diamond art while Casper is beside you.

Sometimes, when things are overwhelming, it can be helpful to keep things very small. For example, you might place both feet on the floor, take one slow breath at a time and remind yourself that this moment will pass. What have you found helpful in these moments?

You do not have to go through these difficult times alone. If things change and you feel unsafe, please reach out to the service again, call a crisis support line, or contact crisis services such as Lifeline on 13 11 14 or Beyond Blue on 1300 22 4636.

I encourage you to keep connecting with your peers on the forum and leaning into the community. You are not alone in this.

Take care.

Warm regards,

AltZing-Connect

I didn’t really sleep so I’m so tired @MissGremlin. I laid there for a while and got up and had lunch and went back again but then I got restless legs. My phone rang and it was the doctors surgery organising a telephone appointment. He’s got my results! I guess he isn’t very happy! 😜 Om guessing I’ll end up with a sleep apnea machine. My appointment is next Friday afternoon. Couldn’t do this week and I’m at work all next week.

I’ve stripped my bed and my sheets are in the wash. I’m about to put new linen on it. Then have a shower and wash my hair. Then I’ll consider the ironing! That’ll just leave so much less for tomorrow. My medical for work, bathing the dogs, dusting and shopping! That sounds like a lot too!

My diamond art hasn’t arrived. It still says it’s in the town and hour and a half away. Maybe tomorrow. I’ll just have to wait it usually doesn’t take that long for it to get from there to here.

Have you done much of yours? I can’t wait to see it.

Hello @AltZing-Connect, I didn't get to connect with the service as I have had to head out.

I vacuumed my house before to try to keep distracted and then sat outside for a few minutes. It's really hard to stay present at the moment and I know it's going to be a very long and hard night given how things are feeling (I'm safe).

When I was trying to do my diamond art I had a fidget toy in my hand aswell, sometimes it helps to hold something physically. I've got my fidgets on my lanyard with me and Casper is sitting next to me in the car while we are waiting.

Thankyou for your kind words ❤️.