I can’t cope

@Captain24 hmmmm that could be either reason as to why you wake up. I use a nose spray when I have a cold to help me breathe.

I do the same, it's like we're constantly expecting things to crash which definitely makes it hard to enjoy those moments. I'm impressed with you saying it. But it's so true, you've put in a phenomenal amount if work!

Bahaha how dare the audience not appreciate your amazing dance moves 😂. Casper usually tries to join in if i dance around 😂.

Just do as much as you can sweet, it's not going anywhere. What's for dinner tonight?

Before I forget I'll share this picture with you ☺️.

@Captain24 @Nala2022 @AuntGlow @Jynx 

I really have put in a massive amount of work. Plus being inpatient gave me a lot of knowledge that I wouldn’t have now. But I listen and try. When she suggest the music the other day I just thought… I’ve already tried that before and it didn’t work. This time it did. She said it’s about being in the right headspace at the right moment. I told her I only did it so I could say I tried! 😂 @MissGremlin That’s the people pleaser in me! That still needs a massive amount of work! 😜

I know… you should have seen the looks in their faces! It made me laugh. There was no way they were joining in!

I only have 2 colours to go so it’s almost done. I’m just having pasta and cheese again. Fibre and dairy! 😜 I’ve just put the water on so I’m hoping I get it done before it’s ready. I don’t think I like it but I’ll have to wait and see when I finish.

@Captain24 that's like with me, I keep trying things even if they haven't worked before cos just maybe the next time I try them they will. I get that people pleaser part!

Haha maybe next time they will 😂.

I just finished another section of mine so I've done 3 today, they have been 20 dots one way and about 35 the other. Pasta and cheese is yummy 😋.

I’ve discovered that, I didn’t realise that sometimes they work and sometimes they don’t. I have a lot of things on my safety plan so maybe sometimes I may need to go back to the beginning! @MissGremlin

I doubt the will, I’ll just have to get use to the looks!

That's still quite a good size. I just did 20 high and 30cm wide. I’ll keep doing them that size. I’m amazed that I actually got the section completed so quickly!

What’s for dinner?

@Captain24 sometimes I'll find something that works but then when I do it next time it doesn't, it's so frustrating but doesn't mean that it might not work again another time. I'd definitely encourage you to keep trying things ☺️.

Woohoo for getting the section completed!

It was wraps tonight 😋.

Im glad you do that I never have! @MissGremlin

My pasta and cheese was yummy.

Im sitting here watching home and away that I missed last week. I have a few episodes to watch. Plus I’ve recorded the block so I need to watch that too. Plus I want to watch some more of little house on the prairie! There is a new season of another show I have watched on Netflix. Plus my diamond art plus my 3D puzzle… I need so much more time!!!

What’s in for tomorrow?

@Captain24 I'm glad your pasta and cheese was yummy 😋.

Haha so many things you want to watch and do. There's really not enough hours in the day 😂.

I've got nothing on tomorrow i don't think. I should be seeing my support worker if she messages. What about you?

I've just sat in bed, I'm debating on whether to take my medication or just stop it.

I know.. I have way to much I want to do @MissGremlin

I’m going to try and get my blood tests done, bath and walk the dogs and then just do the stuff I want to do! Thursday I have to get ready for going back to work so it’ll be a busy day. Tomorrow is a rest day!

I hope you see your support worker.

DO NOT stop your medication without contacting your doctor. So much can happen and go wrong. I’ve done it and ended up in hospital medically wise and mentally it screwed me up a lot!

@Captain24 I might see if I can do my blood test tomorrow if I remember not to drink/eat anything. I'm glad that tomorrow is a rest day for you.

My doctor told me that it was up to me, we were going to get to a higher dose but with my heart playing up at the current dose it's not worth trying when it's already not doing anything.