I can’t cope

It’s lovely that you both share a common interest on top of the connection you’ve built here 😊

I’m really sorry you’ve had to deal with that for so long, @MissGremlin. It sounds like it’s impacted so many parts of your life, especially feeling uncomfortable eating or talking around others. That must have been really difficult to carry and scary if that could be a result if you ever were to get surgery

I love Drew Barrymore too.

I’m glad you were able to make your cuppa. I hope your heart settles soon too. Since it’s been happening for a few days, it might be worth mentioning to your doctor if it continues, just to be safe

Thank you for your kind words. I always enjoy chatting with you 💛

That all sounds manageable @MissGremlin That room you don’t need to worry about. Of If I was having an inspection I would do anything to the room that’s not sorted. It’s ok to have that. Are you ready to start? I’m about to walk the dogs so I’ll be back around in 35 minutes. Can you pack away your clothes and colouring books? If we do it this way maybe you won’t start 15 tasks and not finish any. Try to help with the ADHD

@Nala2022 the connection we have here is truly meaningful in so many ways.

It really has, I've never actually stopped to think about how many aspects of my life it's affected. During school and growing up it was always pointed out to me so I became very self conscious, guess it's stuck with me throughout my life. It's also why I'm scared to have the surgery to have my wisdom teeth taken out as one of the nerves is right next to the bone so there's huge risks there.

Have your ever seen ever after? I don't have favourite things but that movie is one that i love.

I don't have an appointment until the 11th with my doctor, hoping it's definitely settled by then. The other day when I was driving it was doing it constantly, like every beat and I was getting dizzy, I was very close to pulling over and calling an ambulance.

You're a joy to have around here sweet, you always check in with so many people and take the time to listen. Never stop being the amazing you that you are ❤️.

I'm a mod in a mental health group on Facebook and often share inspirational things there and support others. I just wrote this to go with the quote I shared in the toolshed which I'll attach here aswell.

Your thoughts are entirely natural, and every single one of them is allowed to be there. You don't need to fight your mind, force negativity away, or pretend you aren't feeling a certain way. Anxiety, doubt, and difficult thoughts are normal responses, and trying to ignore them usually only gives them more power.

Between a thought passing through your head and the action you take, there is always a gap. You can acknowledge what you are thinking without letting it take over. Notice the thought, accept that it is present, and choose your next step consciously.

I think that’s a really good approach @Captain24

It sounds like you’re learning so much about yourself and what helps you stay regulated. I think it’s really positive that you’re noticing the things that contributed to feeling better, and the work you’re doing with your psych. That self-awareness is such an important part of being able to navigate the harder days too

Your lunch with your friend sounds lovely! I hope you enjoy it too 😊

And yes, I do get tired from social interactions sometimes. I usually find one-on-one catch ups much easier and less draining compared to groups. I enjoy spending time with people, but I definitely need some quiet time afterwards to recharge😅

@Captain24 I'm lucky that they're aware of that room already and respect that I keep that door closed when they come. I'll get started. I hope you enjoy the walk with your dogs sweet. Really hoping to not have a repeat of yesterday's overwhelm when I was trying to do so much at once.

I have always been pretty self aware but working with this patch has made it so much easier to see and acknowledge. She asks in-depth questions and makes me think. I’m always exhausted after our appointments and need a nap. I would recommend her to anyone!

Each step of the way I’m learning. I want to find my way to recovery and I know I need to work hard to get to that. I can’t do it on my own but I do know that one day it is possible.

Lunch will be good, we haven’t done it in a while and it’ll only be for about an hour so it’s not too hard. I still really struggle with the connection and any social contact. But that will improve with time.

Yes one on one is so much easier. I can do two people at once only if it’s my best friend and her girlfriend though. Anymore than that becomes too much and I can’t cope!

I hope you allow yourself some recovery and self care time after each. What does that look like for you? @Nala2022 

I’m just about to leave. Please don’t loss focus. I will help you along the way. If you don’t think about the next job just the folding of clothes and packing away your colouring in books. We will work on the next step together. One thing at a time. I will be your guide. @MissGremlin 

I’m sorry it’s had such a long lasting impact on your life @MissGremlin

I’ve only seen Ever After once, many years ago! I might have to re-watch it 😊

Wow, that must have been really scary I’m glad you were able to stay safe, and I hope things have settled by the time you’re able to see your doctor

Thank you for your kind words, I really appreciate that. I do try to check in with people when I can, but honestly, you do the same for so many people here too. You’re such a compassionate person, so please remember to give yourself that same kindness you offer others

I think it’s really beautiful that you share supportive messages and help others, especially while you’re navigating your own challenges. The words you wrote are really powerful, I think many people will relate to the reminder that thoughts can be present without having to control our actions 💛

Thankyou @Captain24 sweet, I've just packed up all the colouring books. Now to start on the clothes.

Ok.. after you have packed the clothes away can you vacuum your room? @MissGremlin

Then tidy the first spare room. I’ll be back but then.. keep following me. This is where my autism is useful.

Im just in the phone to mum and then I’ll walk the dogs.