I can’t cope

We can do it together for the next 15 minutes and I’ll be waiting after she leaves. @MissGremlin

Please be open and honest with her. I honestly know how hard it is but she needs to know. Maybe if you keep telling her how bad it is you may get to keep seeing her longer.

I think mum and dad may come around at some stage but not sure.

@Captain24 I'll try to be. I haven't got as much trust with her though like I had with the counsellor.

I'll probably keep it short as it's cold to just be standing outside talking.

I'll be doing diamond art until she comes.

@Captain24 i forgot that you asked me a question the other day about if it triggers me when you talk about them. Do you mean your mum and dad?

Yeah I do. Just the different relationships that we have. They do a lot for me as I do them. I didn’t know if that triggered you at all? @MissGremlin 

@Captain24 no it doesn't at all sweet. I love hearing about them and the relationship that you have with them. I'm really glad that you've got them.

That’s good @MissGremlin. I just wanted to take more care of it did. I am lucky but not at all with them during childhood. Hence my cPTSD! They still cause me a lot of issues and it’s hard to spend to much time with them but these days we do look after each other a bit better.

Feel free not to answer… please… do you have a dad?

@Captain24 i know the relationship hasn't always been great with them but at least they are a part of your life now even if things can be tricky at times.

I mean technically yes i do but i don't know him at all. He was out of the picture before I was born. There's a whole story to tell but I'm not going to go into it today. I was told that he was killed in a motorcycle accident so all my life i believed that until one day after years of sending letters to the only address I had i got a text message supposedly from him.

They have been and gone! Yay. @MissGremlin

You don’t have to tell me the story unless you want to whenever you are or aren’t ready. Not prying. oh.. and being very careful!

I just got a message that my glasses are in to be picked up. So much for doing nothing today! 😜 Injust need to learn how to use them. At least I get a little bit of practice in before I go back to work.

How did you visit go?

@Captain24 I like quick visits like that 😂

Thankyou sweet. Maybe one day I'll go into it, but it's not something I talk about usually.

Oohhh exciting though to be getting new glasses. Hopefully it doesn't take long to adjust to them.

The visit was ok, we just talked about random things and I said about how I get to do diamond art and connect with a friend while we do. I've just got my diamond art in front of me again and I made a hot chocolate cos its chilly here.

It was good! 😜 they dropped in the milk I asked for and tears that I asked for! @MissGremlin

I told my psych that we do to. She loves that I get connection from here!

I have to go at 2:15 to get them adjusted and pick them up. It’s a little exciting and hopefully not hard to use. Plenty of time to get use to them before work!

I just organised a lunch date for Monday!