I can’t cope

@Captain24 at least if you do it now it's over and done with. Definitely make sure to take your meds, don't want to forget them.

Maybe just pick an easy one to do then until you can work on mums one. Has she been able to give you the photos yet?

I don't have anything tomorrow other than support worker at some stage but if it's raining then that will only be done via a phone call.

The lack of sleep is just horrendous, I really want to be able to get a good night's sleep. I do everything I can to wind down and have things relaxing and calm but still I struggle so much.

I’ve just come inside and taken my meds so I’ll start now! @MissGremlin I just put the last lot of plastics in the dishwasher. 2 don’t fit so they can just get done when I run it properly next time.

No she hasn’t given me the photos. I think k she has found the one of Brut she wants but can’t find Misha’s. Instead of just sitting around she could go out on her computer to find it! It’s in one of 2 files so it can’t be that hard!

Ok you set a time and I’ll be ready!

Thays so hard. I use to have trouble sleeping for night shift. I’d get into bed and tho k to myself, I can’t sleep during the day, I can’t sleep for nightshift. This was before I was medicated. Then I changed my thinking to I can do this. It’s just a good day of sleeping. That actually worked for me. I’ve told some of the new ones that you can talk yourself out of sleeping but you can also talk yourself into sleeping. I know that won’t work for you but that’s what I did

@Captain24 sounds like a good plan to me!

Hoping she gets them to you soon sweet, it sounds a bit frustrating that she hasn't already.

We'll have to work out a time, I can't think at the moment, my brain is mush.

I've had to do the whole night shift thing and it can be hard to get into a routine with it but then for you you're constantly switching between day shifts and night shifts. I'm glad you've been able to get it to work though. I get frustrated when I'm so exhausted and ready to fall asleep, tell myself that I'm going to get a good night's rest and then just can't.

I just had my phone appointment with my doctor, next fortnight I have to go in person so we can do the referral for the sleep study. I've also got the scripts I need so I'll be able to get them filled on Thursday.

I’m really tired and need a nap! @MissGremlin. The walking and the sun is just taking it out of me. I will get use to it though.

You just let me know is when you can. No hurry.

It is frustrating I’ve been asking for months!! All they do is sit around all day other than walking Keiko at 5:30 in the morning and 3:30 in the afternoon plus go for a drive and sticky beak at everything at 10. It can’t be that hard.

I know it wouldn’t help but I’m medicated so much now that it doesn’t matter! 😜 Switching is hard though.

Oh Yay!!!!! The sleep study!!!! That sounds so good. Maybe there is light at the end of the tunnel!

@Captain24 is it worth having a nap before you have your psych appointment as I know they take alot out of you aswell.

It doesn't sound like it would be that hard espescially only having 2 files to go through.

Haha medications help, stop us being less crazy 😂.

Oh I really hope so. I need answers and then help to change things. He's concerned about my oxygen levels dropping, it gets down to 90% most nights which is also why I wake up with a pounding headache.

I did think about it but I’ve just finished dusting!!!!! And I’m about to do the ironing. I’ll sleep after it as I usually need to. @MissGremlin. yes it takes a lot out of me but I’m open and honest which leaves me feeling vulnerable.

Im hoping it’s a simple fix for you but for now just focus on the fact that he is organising it. It may still take a while to have it done. But at least there is something in the pipeline.

@Captain24 it's good that you're open and honest with her but completely understand the feeling vulnerable. I had to be honest with my doctor today about where things are sitting and it's always so hard. Well done for getting the dusting done.

I'm just glad there's a plan moving forward, I know it's not going to be a quick thing but getting it started is so important.

I'm crashing pretty hard here, I just have nothing left in me. I'm safe for now, laying on the lounge with Casper.

I’ve just finished the ironing. The dishwasher has just finished so I can pack away all the plastics and I have set up my laptop for my appointment! Kicking goals here! @MissGremlin but that’s me done for the day! Unless I feel empowered after my appointment but I’m guessing I’ll go to bed and sleep it off.

It so good that there is a plan. You deserve and need it.

Im sorry you are crashing. Is there anything I can do?

@Captain24 it's been an eventful afternoon for me, my body decided that the severe lack of sleep was enough to bring on a seizure 😞. My body is so sore and my head is pounding (I'm safe).

Hope that your psych appointment was ok sweet and that you're able to rest after if needed.

I’m sorry you had a seizure during the day. Were you right to go out and do what you had to? @MissGremlin

My psych appointment was good but very draining. I’ve got 2 pages of notes that I have to work on before I see her. I’m not suppose to distract I have to do things with the intention of changing my thoughts. We worked on the part about me punishing myself. We talked about the current roller coaster I am on and that it’s exhausting.

It could be the exercise and the sun causing my exhaustion as well. I told her about my sleep and she was concerned and we are going to work on it next week. Me being so so exhausted is what is causing the sleep trouble. I’m to tired to sleep properly.

I did have nearly a 2 hour nap after. I want to still be in bed though.

How are you going now?