I can’t cope

Oh no @MissGremlin 😔 That's a lot to deal with

I'm really glad you managed to get an appointment with your doctor today though. I hope it gives you some answers and helps you feel a little more supported with everything that's been going on

Of course, we really do have such a lovely community here, and I'm glad we can all be here for one another 😊

Doing the dishes and then snuggling up on the lounge with Casper sounds like a really gentle plan. I hope you're able to take it easy for the rest of the day 💛

@Nala2022 it was alot to deal with, makes me dread having to go out again later.

I really need him to organise a sleep study cos things have gotten so much worse there. I'm only able to sleep for a few minutes at a time throughout the night so it's having a huge impact on me.

It's an amazing community and knowing that you're not alone makes such a huge difference when you're struggling.

The appointment time was messed up, it's now at 10.30 so I'm going to see if I can get a bit of my diamond art done while I'm waiting. Things are feeling so heavy though, I want a break from the thoughts/urges but they just keep coming and they get so loud (I'm safe). I've heated up my wheat bag, got my blanket on, Casper snuggled up next to me and my diamond art on my lap.

I can imagine @MissGremlin 😔 After everything that happened just trying to get to the appointment, it makes sense that going out again feels daunting. Take it one step at a time, you’ve already gotten through a really stressful morning.

Definitely bring it up with your doctor today and hopefully they can help look into what’s happening and what support might be available for your sleep.

I agree, this community really is special. Knowing you don’t have to sit with everything completely alone can make such a difference

I’m sorry the thoughts and urges are feeling so loud today. Thank you for letting us know you’re safe. If they start feeling harder to manage, please reach out to someone you trust or a support service so you don’t have to carry that moment on your own 🫶

I hope your appointment goes well and that you’re able to get some support around the sleep issues

@Nala2022 my appointment is telehealth thankfully but I'll have to go out in the afternoon. Definitely taking today one step at a time.

I'm not sure if I feel comfortable reaching out to anyone after the experience I had last night. I truly feel like I'm alone trying to get through everything cos noone understands.

Thankyou, I'm really hoping something can be done cos I need to be able to get some proper sleep, 2-3 hours every night is far from enough.

It’s just starting to warm up here so I’ll take them. It’s 3 degrees. It gets ridiculously cold here. At hasn’t been anywhere near as cold this year as last year though. We had a couple of -7’s last year. That’s fun when you are coming off nightshift! @Nala2022

It’s not until next year. I have 3 friends and they are all very different. So a winery would work to put them all together if it’s not freezing since my birthday is in May. I live in a really beautiful place in the country. I live in a new estate and I can see mountains from my back door and front door. The actual vines run up and down hills. With mountains in the background. You’d love it. Plus they are award winning wineries. I actual found a bottle of our wine in Spain!

Im going to try. The last few days I have walked the dogs in the morning and then come home and sat on the grass in the backyard in the sun and felt really grounded. When I do the couple of things today then I’ll have nothing to do until I need to do just a quick clean in a few days. 2 dogs makes a mess of the floors! I only cleaned them after dark last night and there is already grass inside! 😂

I really hope it’s only a mild cold for you. You need to look after yourself as well. Feel free to whinge to me if you are miserable. We are all here for each other.

Do you have any plans this afternoon?

I’m going to walk them now. The temp has gone up to 3 degrees so it’s not as bad. @MissGremlin

An inside day sounds good. We haven’t had any rain for a couple of weeks so hoping some comes around soon to keep the crops and animals fed.

Im glad that you got in. At least you can get your scripts and get him to book you in for another appointment.

I really want to get my diamond art finished. Jets nearly dry so I can then put him on the bed in the spare room until I can afford a couple of frames. They $55 each and I need 2 for mums pictures!

Any other plans?

@Captain24 hope you all enjoy the walk sweet.

Definitely need the rain for the crops and animals so hopefully you do get some soon.

I'm so glad that he was able to get me in, I told them how urgent it was.

How much more do you have to go of your diamond art? The frames are expensive but they will look amazing once they are done.

No other plans, honestly my main plan is to try to survive the day which is fighting against everything my thoughts are telling me (I'm safe). Just going to sit here and do diamond art until my appointment and then maybe lay on the lounge.

My walk was good. I went down different streets that I didn’t know were out here. I live in stage 2 of the estate so I’m at the front of it and don’t go to the back as there is only one way out and one way in! @MissGremlin

Im now sitting in the wet grass in the sun. I really need to be dusting but I want my grounding time too!

I have about a third to go so hopefully I will finish it tomorrow and then I have to work out what to do next.

I how your appointment has happened and went ok and that you are not waiting around for it. I’ll dust, put the last load of plastics in the dishwasher, iron and then I’ll do diamond art. By then I’ll have absolutely nothing to do. Other than the lawns but I’ll do them Thursday or something. Oh and my psych appointment at 2!

Maybe tomorrow we can get some diamond art in together.

This is some of the view I see when I walk around out here @Nala2022

@Captain24 I'm glad you went for a walk, taking different streets sounds like a fun adventure.

It's ok to have your grounding time first, the dusting isn't going anywhere.

Not much more to go until you're finished, have you got any other custom ones to do at the moment or just the cheap ones?

I'm waiting for my appointment it's just after 10.30am here. Doing those couple of things and then your diamond art sounds like a perfect idea while you wait for your psych appointment.

I'd like that, just really need to get a proper sleep. My tummy is so upset cos I haven't had enough rest, I just feel blah. I've just finished one little section on my diamond art, no idea on what this picture is though. It almost looks like a labubu by the outline of it but it's hard to tell 😂.

It’ll take me probably an hour and a half to have everything finished. @MissGremlin I might just go in and do it. The sun isn’t going anywhere. It’s time to take my meds anyway!

I have a custom one of Keiko and Jett but I don’t want to do it until I’ve done mums. I do have a pre-made one as well. Then the cheap ones.

That sounds exciting! I can’t wait for mine to turn up! We will see what we can work out or figure a time out for tomorrow. I’m free all day other than the walk in the morning but you will be doing stuff anyway.

Im sorry you feel so blah. I really wish I could help you with sleep.