I can’t cope

@Captain24 it honestly sounds wonderful. I'm really proud of you for actually getting out there sweet.

I'm thinking I'll do hers first and then I'll work on my one after but I might pace myself with mine as I won't be able to afford them very often.

The rest of my house is mostly ok now, it's just the one room. But I have a whole shed full of stuff that I need to go through.

That's a big task to start with but sometimes it's good to get the harder things out the way first. Just do what you can sweetheart.

I want to get it done quickly, I'm actually over this one. The 30×40 shouldn't take long and then hopefully mum has done the photos by then so you can order some more.

Thankyou sweet, know that I'm still here for you aswell. It's actually part of what keeps me going is being able to support others. If I wasn't so messed up I'd love to be able to work towards being a peer support worker.

That sounds good and definitely pace yourself. @MissGremlin. You will really like it and it’s really challenging. It will take you a while. But I’m really sorry, you will see the difference. Maybe you could order some more of the other ones when you have the money and the next time order on of these ones. Whether it’s Casper or a pre-made one. They aren’t as expensive as the custom and they often have sales.

I need to tidy my garage but I have a car in there that doesn’t start and isn’t registered. I just don’t have the money to sort it out. But I can get rid of some stuff.

I’ve just had breakfast and set the laundry up so I will bath them in about 10 minutes. It doesn’t really take me long but it’s something I struggle with. Changing the bed linen is tough too but it’s actually a really easy task if you think about it! The pantry is pretty good so it should be too hard. I’m only doing the shelves that I use.

I would love to be a peer support worker. I think it would be a rewarding experience. To be able to help someone like as and use what helped us to maybe help guide them.

I already try and use the stuff I’ve learnt to help some in here.

@Captain24 I know there's going to be a huge difference with both the quality and detail which I'm looking forward to. Will have to see how the custom one of Casper that I've got coming turns out. Ill just have to save money for a while to be able to get some more. It helps that they have sales regularly aswell.

I have both a garage and shed, the garage still has some of the ex's stuff in it as he's got nowhere to put it. The shed is cleaner than what it used to be as i got rid of a heap before, i might see if I can get through some of it later in the year.

Hoping it all goes smoothly. I need to do my bedding and bath Casper aswell, need a warmer day to bath him though.

It would be amazing and we definitely have the lived experience. I try to help people out both on here and outside of here. Knowing how hard it is to try to get through things alone is what makes me want to help as many people as I can.

I kind of feel bad about getting you to get the custom ones @MissGremlin. In the odd occasion when you can afford to you could just get one here and there.

That sounds like a good idea, maybe you can do a little bit at a time over the next few months.

Both dogs are bathed and blow dried. Their towels are in the wash. I’m about to change my bed linen and clean the laundry. Then I’ll have a shower, wash my hair and clean the shower and shower screen. The tackle the pantry.

Im really really really tired though. It all has to be done though. Now that I’ve bathed the dogs and changing the linen. I like clean sheets, clean body, clean hair!

Im not very good off here. I can do some stuff if people come to me but im not really good at approaching them if i know something is wrong.

How are you going?

@Captain24 don't feel bad at all, I'm so happy that I've got some custom ones coming and they will hold so much meaning.

Will see how I go with the shed, its hard cos there's alot of memories buried in the stuff that's in boxes.

You've done amazing sweet, I'm glad you've been able to get started and have a plan of what to do next.

Maybe after you can have a rest, you definitely deserve it.

I'm a moderator in a group for mental health so I support people on there and it's all around the world.

I'm really struggling, things aren't good here at all. I'm safe for now, sitting here doing my diamond art.

Once I have done all that I’ll see where I’m up to and when the sheets finish in the dryer I will go and have a sleep. This tiredness is extreme. At least I have a plan though. I feel a little more organised. @MissGremlin

I hope doing your diamond art is going ok.

Im sorry you are struggling. Is there anything I can help with?

Being a mod sounds good. Do you give suggestions that I’ve given you?

@Captain24 that sounds like a good idea sweet.

I'm just going to hop off for a while, I'll talk to you later sweet. I'm sorry, I'm just really not coping. I'm safe for now and I'll reach out to a crisis service if I need to.

@MissGremlin and @Captain24 Happy Sunday to you both. Just wanted to jump in, send some love and sparkles and say I see you both having a hard day AND still showing up here supporting each other with presence and care. It's a beautiful thing...I admire your honesty and resilience in the face of it all.

On we roll ey? We keep chugging along..

(wish I could insert the little train emoji...I think I can I think I can...)

I think you both are doing great. Sincerely.

Sending you all my best...

hopeful_hannah (it's in my name :-P)

@MissGremlin please do that....reach out to a service if you need. And take gentle loving care of yourself. We'll be here when you return xx

Hello @hopeful_hannah, I hope you're having a lovely Sunday. Thankyou for the kind words, they mean alot. Being able to be here for each other even when times are tough for both of us is what makes the connection so special.

I'm just not coping here at all, I can't bring things down or stop the thoughts and urges, it's alot to manage. I'm just getting upset and frustrated cos nothing is helping and i feel like such a failure. I'm safe for now, I'm still trying to do my diamond art and Casper is snuggled up next to me.