I can’t cope

I wouldn’t say I wasn’t well. I really just have a sore throat. @MissGremlin. I did sleep for a little while this afternoon. I’ve just gotten up and set all my alarms for the next 2 weeks. It was nice to unset my work ones!

That feeling is hard. I’m glad you told her though. That’s a good thing.

Im sorry all those emotions are coming up again. You have a whole year of ‘firsts’ with both of them. Go gently on yourself.

@Captain24 a sore throat still isn't nice to deal with especially on top of exhaustion.

It's definitely a year of firsts and they are very hard.

I'm going crazy at the moment, the council have stuffed up Caspers registration so technically he doesn't even exist right now! I've had to make 2 phone calls to them today to try to get it sorted and now I have to send an email to them.

It all good. Nothing to worry about. I’ll get it sorted @MissGremlin

They are hard

Mine aren't even registered! They are microchipped and on record at the vets. If they got out and took them to my vet they would just call me as they would recognise Pixie anywhere! It must be painful to deal with.

I’ve just changed all my bedlinen and it’s the doona cover is washing and the sheets are in the dryer. I’ve had a shower washed my hair, cleaned the shower and shower screen. I’ve ironed and packed away all my work clothes. I’ve cleaned my lunchbox and packed my work bag away. Work is finished and off me!

Im about to clean the ensuite and main bathroom. I still have more I want to do so I’ll see how I go. I’m not hungry yet so I’ll keep going until it’s time to feed the dogs or I’m hungry.

Im guessing you are close to bed by now.

@Captain24 if they aren't registered here we end up getting fined. It's the fact that the council have stuffed up and taken both Casper and the other dog that I had to rehome off my account.

You've done incredible to get all of that done sweet, I'm impressed.

I'm doing my bedtime routine so I get to sit and do my diamond art soon.

We do too. @MissGremlin. I probably should look into it. 😂 I’d have to find their desexing papers.

That’s painful. At least you can show he was there. So that’s a start.

Im getting tired now! But I’ll just try and keep pushing through. I sheets won’t be finished drying until just after 9 so that I can fold them and put the doona cover in. Then I’ll chuck my towels in and set it for in the morning so when I get up they are ready to go into the dryer. I’m trying to talk myself into the ensuite.

Sounds good to get to your diamond art. You go out every afternoon now don’t you? I’ll see if I can get tomorrow’s list done before 12? No promises though.

@Captain24 haha it's great fun trying to find paperwork 😂.

I've had to send in documents with his microchip number on them.

Can imagine you would be getting tired now. Setting the towels for the morning sounds like a good idea.

I do go out every afternoon, I'll probably end up trying to nap from 12pm 😂.

I’ve cleaned the ensuite and cleaned the main bathroom and bath. I’ve cleaned all inside the fridge now it smells like vanilla! I’m exhausted so I’m just going to sit and have some ice cream, take my meds and wait for the washing to finish. @MissGremlin I do have a pounding headache though.

I figure you had to go out now. Maybe on Friday we can fit some in. I want to try and take the dogs for a walk in the morning and Pix has an appointment at 11. I want to do this one that I’m doing and I’ll start the bird one that I’ve got that’s a good one. It’s only 20x30 so it shouldn’t take that long especially with being off. What one are you doing? Have you finished any while I was working?

Maybe we can fit it in over the weekend as you don’t go out as much do you?

@Captain24 oh I love that vanilla spray! You've done amazing sweet and definitely deserve to sit and have some ice cream. I'm sorry that you have a headache though.

Taking the dogs for a walk sounds perfect, hoping Pix's appointment goes ok. I'm still working on the same one, not telling what it is though, it's a surprise 😂.

I usually only go out on Saturday for shopping but not for long. I'll be ok to do some either tomorrow or Friday but only if I can get some decent sleep otherwise I'll need to try to nap to get something at least. If not we'll aim for the weekend definitely.

I love it too. I clean with vanilla metho but I think k tomorrow I’ll clean the kitchen with the fridge spray. @MissGremlin

Ive eaten and taken my meds. Now just waiting the 10 minutes until the dryer is done and then I can head to bed!!! I did a lot more than I thought I would. I have to be up at 7 though as I need to go grocery shopping. Plus I have a big list to do. Bathing the dogs is the most important one! Of If I can motivate myself enough I can finish my entire list tomorrow and then have nothing for a few days!!!

We can work on the weekend. You need to get some sleep whenever you can. I’ll keep checking my phone incase you do get time.

@Captain24 it's just such a nice smell. Cleaning the kitchen with it sounds like a good idea, I use mine to wipe my benches down.

I'm glad you've eaten and taken your meds. Hoping you can get a good night's sleep tonight sweet being the you have to be up at 7am. Just do what you can tomorrow.

I'm so stressed out right now with what's going on here, it's brought up all the dark thoughts which are hard to sit with. I'm sitting here questioning why I'm even still fighting, I'm just exhausted. I'm safe, sitting with Casper and doing my diamond art.