I can’t cope

I’ve just run out of one of my 3 anti-depressants!! 😢 @MissGremlin. I can’t get in to get a script until Thursday afternoon! I’ll just have to space them out.

Im sorry you have a heavy head too. It’s a struggle to even look forward.

I have been grocery shopping and packed it away. I made it to the Chiro and I’m cooking my meals for work. So I’ve done something at least. I still have to go back out though. Before I can eat and drop the dogs in. I just have to wait for my meals to finish. At least I’ll have meals for Wednesday when I come off too.

I hope you can take it gentle on yourself today. At least I’ll get to sleep this afternoon for about 4 hours. This time I’ll get straight up when my alarm goes off!! No sleeping in!

@Captain24 oh no, could you maybe ring up the doctors and see if a script can be organised before the appointment?

It is a real struggle, today I just want to throw in the towel and quit, I truly feel so done at the moment (I'm safe).

You've done so well to get things done sweet and I'm glad you'll have meals for Wednesday. Hoping the chiro hasn't left you feeling sore.

I'm going to do my dishes and then lay on the lounge, i need to try to rest today. Hoping i can sleep a bit at least then I won't have to think. I know it's so hard sometimes to get up when alarms go off, I dislike alarms so much. I hope today goes smoothly though sweetheart and that you get a good rest this afternoon before work.

That is the earliest I can get the script organised! I could have had an appointment this afternoon but I’ll be asleep. I’m booked in for a phone appointment Thursday afternoon just for the script. I run out Wednesday night. I take 2 off them and was going to stretch it out but they are 2 work shifts and it’s not worth the risk! 2 days shouldn’t hurt and they are the $100 ones! @MissGremlin

I usually don’t get sore after the Chiro so I’m pretty lucky.

Im just about to duck out again and get the last of the stuff I need. Then see if my work clothes are dry and if I can iron them while I’m cooking today’s lunch.

I get the wanting to quit. Just telling everyone to 🖕and just be a nobody and do nothing. No needing to do anything or being anywhere.

I do hope you get some rest as you need it. Just chilling in the couch sounds good.

@Captain24 oh that sucks, I'm glad you've at least got an appointment booked, just hoping it doesn't have too much of an impact on you.

That's good that you don't get sore.

Fingers crossed they're dry so you can get them ironed, hoping the trip out goes ok.

Yes exactly, disappearing without a trace! Everything just feels too much today, I'm really not in a good headspace (I'm safe).

I've done my dishes and set up the lounge, just hoping I can rest.

im hopping it doesn’t affect me much. I’m hoping he calls early enough for me to go and grab it. @MissGremlin

I have sorted my meals into containers. I have ironed my work clothes. I have eaten lunch. I have dropped the dogs in and I’ve had a shower and just climbed into bed. I haven’t stopped since I got up. I’m exhausted and looking forward to my sleep. I’m getting a little excited that there is only 2 to go! Mum also got me a meal in large so that’ll be 2 meals. I have heaps of food which is really nice.

Im hoping you are currently resting. Hoping you can get a decent rest.

If I have time I’ll pop in this afternoon. Not sure though as I still have to up back the dishwasher and tidy the kitchen.

@Captain24 fingers crossed he calls early enough for you.

Hoping you're getting lots of rest sweet, you honestly are incredible for getting everything done that you have. It's so exciting that you only have 2 to go, I'm so glad that you've got that time off really soon.

I've dozed on and off but keep having nightmares and waking up in a panic. I'm still feeling the same as I was which really sucks, I don't have any fight in me right now. I'm safe, going to make an iced coffee and chill with Casper before I have to head out. I just want things to feel better, to feel ok 😞.

Thanks, I managed to get so much in but usually I do on pyjama day. I actually usually enjoy today. @MissGremlin

I got just 4 and a half hours sleep so that’s good. That’s pretty standard for today. My mind was really busy when I was trying to get to sleep and wouldn’t switch of but I’m guessing it did!

That sucks that you still feel the same. I’m hoping these nightmares settle down eventually for you. Did you hear back from the psychology place?

@Captain24 I'm glad you got a bit of sleep sweet.

I haven't heard back yet.

I really hope it works out @MissGremlin

Having done so much this morning gives me time now to slowly prepare myself instead of rushing around. I just have to clean my teeth and get dressed! I’m not cleaning the kitchen or unpacking the dishwasher as I can’t be bothered. Maybe if I have time tomorrow morning. Or it can just wait.

What’s for dinner tonight? I just had potato bake and having some pasta thing for dinner. It’s the same for the next 2 nights!

@Captain24 it's good that you can take things slowly now.

I'm sorry sweet, things aren't good here (I'm safe). I'll talk to you later. Lots of love and hugs to you ❤️.