I can’t cope

@Nala2022 I finally got home after getting the shopping done. I'd no sooner gotten to the shops and then spotted that Casper had gotten a glove so I had to race back home to get it before he swallowed it, that was so scary especially after last time when he swallowed a sock. It took me a while to do the shopping as I needed to keep stopping to let my body settle as I kept getting giddy.

I'm glad to be home, I've made an iced coffee and I'm sitting down to relax for a bit before I have to head out again a little later.

Oh no @MissGremlin 😟 I can see how alarming that would have been, especially after what happened last time. I'm really glad Casper is okay

It also sounds like it took a lot of effort to get the shopping done with everything going on. Well done for listening to your body and taking breaks when you needed them.

Are you doing okay now that you're back home? I'm having my second cuppa and had a cheeky choc chip cookie to go with it

I hope the rest of your afternoon goes a little more smoothly for you lovely 💛

@Nala2022 I definitely went into a panic when I saw that he had it, I had only just turned my car off so had to jump-start it again to go back home. I was so scared that he might swallow it before I got home, thankfully he actually left it alone after playing with it for a short time.

I'm still struggling and my headache is getting worse, I've gone up another half a tablet with my medication so that will be why the giddy spells. It takes time for my body to adjust to it as it lowers my blood pressure and mine isn't good on the best of days 😂.

A cheeky choc chip cookie sounds yummy 😋. I've put my potato bake in the oven to heat up for lunch.

Thankyou sweet ❤️. I think I need to take today very bent l slowly and gently.

@tyme I miss you. I can’t believe you left and didn’t say goodbye. I know you won’t see this but I’m just saying it anyway. I hope all works out for you and that good things come your way.

I slept in this morning. I got up at 5:30. I’m usually in the road by then. I turned my alarm off and rolled over then I woke up with a start thinking what the time was. I rushed and packed my bad and got dressed. It seemed to go in slow motion. I messaged my boss and said I had slept in. When I finally got the road, which was after I’m normally there, the was absolutely no traffic. That would be because everyone was already nearly at work. All 3 mines. I flew at 120 all the way there and made it with 5 minutes to spare. Great start to the day 😔. My boss was good about it though.

The computer system was all over the place. It sent me to 3 different diggers in 30 seconds. I had to call and ask where I was meant to be. It sent me to my meal break when it wasn’t suppose to. I just followed it and it was wrong. It sent me to a park up area while I was getting loaded by a digger. I called up and said this thing is giving me the shits, am I suppose to be going to park up? Apparently not. She said just keep doing what I was doing and she would message me any changes.

Today has been a whole head f@ck. I have a headache from all the confusion and overwhelm. My AuDHD is not coping! I even took extra meds to try and clear my head but it didn’t work!

Hello @Captain24 sweet, it sounds like today was very all over the place. I'm glad you still made it to work and that your boss was understanding.

I'm sorry that it's been a confusing and overwhelming day, but know that you've done so well to get through it. Sending you lots of love and hugs sweetheart ❤️.

Hey @MissGremlin

just to top it all off. I couldn’t be bothered to have any dinner so I didn’t take my meds the ones that make me sick. I go down to my bedroom to have a shower and go to bed. I didn’t put my work clothes in the wash this morning as I didn’t think knof it when I was running around. Now I have to wait 43 minutes for my washing to finish to be able to go to bed!

This week is getting all just too much and I’m not coping with it. I’m shaking and feel

like I could just breakdown at any time.

Sorry about me.

How are you going?

@Captain24 oh sweet, it's one of those days where things just keep going wrong.

Can you try to take a slow, deep breath and just focus on this moment right now. You've got the washing in and it will finish soon then you can go to bed. Remember you've only got what 2 more days and then you have some time off, we're going to get through those couple of days and then enjoy being able to do diamond art and chat together.

Right now I'm not in a good way, I have alot of rage in me and I don't feel like I can stay in control. I'm fighting to just stay in bed so that nothing happens. I'm safe, sitting here trying to focus on my diamond art with Casper snuggled up next to me.

I just had some ice cream. The cold helped a little. @MissGremlin

2 to go. It seems like a long way away. Especially after how everything is going.

What I would really like to do is just go into hospital. Just to be cared for, people looking after me, a break from the real world. It’s like a little bubble in there. All you’re responsible for is making it to groups. Everything else is done for you. It’s like a mentally refreshing break. But it won’t and can’t happen.

Im sorry about the rage. I understand it all to well. It’s rolling around in me too. I’m sorry you’re not in a good way. I’m glad you have Casper. Did you end up seeing my diamond art of Jett?

@Captain24 I'm glad the cold helped, even if it's only a little.

I know it feels like so long especially with how things have been going. I'm truly hoping that the next 2 days go ok for you sweet.

I completely understand that, it's how I feel but I'm in the same boat in that it can't happen.

It's just horrible, I'm not an angry person so when these feelings come over me it gets really scary and things can happen so quickly (I'm safe).

I actually forgot to go back and look, I will do that now. I keep losing threads and then having to hunt them down.