I can’t cope

I hear you @MissGremlin. When everything is happening all at once, it can feel impossible not to carry it all at the same time.

I hope you're able to be gentle with yourself today and take things one step at a time ❤️

Thank you for sharing all of that @Captain24. I can actually hear a shift in the way you're talking about yourself compared to a couple of days ago.

It really stood out to me that you recognised you needed the extra sleep and are trying to see that as okay, rather than something to feel guilty about. That's a big step!

I'm also really glad you're starting to accept that your breakdown was okay. It doesn't make you a failure, it was your mind and body telling you they had reached their limit

I hope you and MissGremlin get to enjoy some diamond art together today if she's feeling up to it 😊

And thank you for asking, I'm doing well, thanks for checking in 💛

@Captain24 thankyou sweet, I appreciate it more than you know.

I know tags aren't working and it's really making things so much harder to connect with people.

My appointment is soon and I need to do a quick shopping trip aswell

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I’m working on it @Nala2022.

Im just saying it, that’s the first step but trying as well. I have had a shower and tied my hair up. I even put shoes and socks on instead of my Ugg boots. Now I’m making weetbix for lunch. That’s a start and a really massive one. It took a lot of convincing myself but I did it! I nearly just laid on my bed but my bed is only for sleeping, I don’t have a tv or anything in there. I try really hard with sleep hygiene. With bipolar it’s really important.

Im starting to accept it and instead of just brushing it to the side I’m going to buy a box of chocolates for the three people that were supportive and went above and beyond to help me and got me through it and claimed me down and gave me the time and juggles things to make the rest of the night easier.

Im trying to do what my psych would suggest. Im suppose to be having an appointment right now but I had to cancel as I just couldn’t afford it. I will see her in 2 weeks but that will have been 8 weeks since I have seen her. So im currently working through all of this with no professional support. The support that I rely on. She is amazing and I can tell her anything without judgement. Her methods are a bit different but she has ADHD and comes up with the weirdest things but we connect in that level and I will try them. One of them was having a bath. I have trouble staying in it and have to set a timer for when I can get out. So I’ll set it for 20 minutes and be watching the clock from 10. So to help distracted me she suggest bath toys. You know like little rubber duckies. So I got some and it did help!

Did you have a good weekend?

It is making things tough. @MissGremlin

Im here for you and a safe person. I really want to write in your thread but it would probably make things worse and I don’t think I’d be allowed to write what I want to say anyway! 😂

Im ready whenever you are just let me know. It’s also ok if you need a nap after everything being so hard at the doctors. Just know I’m here for you when you are ready.

@Captain24 thankyou sweet ❤️. I've been missing my thread, I know they can see me anywhere but it just feels safer here at the moment. Oh the things we want to say but can't 😂.

I've not napped the last few days, trying to avoid it in the hopes that I can sleep better at night. I'll let you know when I'm ready.

Before I say this I'll say I'm safe. At the moment I'm hoping my doctor doesn't call an ambulance on me, my heart is playing up. As a result my heart rate is incredibly high (160+) and has been since I woke up this morning, my whole body is shaking both inside and out, my chest hurts and my breathing is fast, it feels like I've run a marathon. It's such a horrible feeling and I really don't want to end up in hospital.

@Nala2022

I can really see how much effort you've put into today already, and I hope you're able to give yourself some credit for that @Captain24

I also really love your idea of buying a box of chocolates for the people who supported you. It sounds like they made a real difference during such a difficult moment, and it's lovely that you want to acknowledge that

I'm sorry you had to cancel your appointment with your psych. Eight weeks is a long time when she's someone you trust and feel so supported by. It's great you have found coping strategies that align better with your needs and they have been helpful.

My weekend was good, thanks for asking! I hope you're able to keep being as gentle with yourself today as you've been trying to be 💛

That sounds really frightening @MissGremlin

Right now, the most important thing is to let your doctor assess what's going on and to follow their advice, even if that does end up meaning further medical care. Your health and safety come first.

I'm thinking of you and hope you're able to let us know how you get on when you feel up to it. Sending you lots of care❤️

Thinking of you @MissGremlin

Sorry I only just seen this. I’m hoping all is ok. Let me know when you can.