I can’t cope

I’ve just had breakfast and taken my night meds. No I just have to feed the dogs and I’m done. Then a nice warm shower and my bed is calling me. Hopefully it’s a good sleep. The weather is overcast and it feels like a sleepy kind of day. Then do it all again when I wake up.

I did have really bad anxiety last night though. I had to try and control my breathing as I was losing control of it. The first part of the night I struggled to do anything right. It was really stressful and I kept forgetting to look for traffic. One road was so busy too. Then we changed dig units and it was easier. I did it well and then I started to calm down. After that I did everything right. The anxiety took it out of me though. I was really really tired by 12. But I made it and got home safely on the other road. It was easier to see where I was going in the daylight. It’s actually a nice drive.

@Captain24 thankyou sweet. I just needed to get it out. It was a really hard night and not having a safe space to share how I'm feeling or what's happening for me means everything is bottling up inside (I'm safe).

How was work sweetheart?

Hi @Captain24,

It sounds like last night was really challenging with the anxiety, but I’m glad you were able to get through it and make it home safely

It’s great to hear that once you changed to the dig units and things felt more manageable, you were able to settle and feel more confident. That’s a big thing to recognise, you kept going even while feeling overwhelmed

I hope you get a good rest today after such an exhausting night. A warm shower and a cosy bed sound like a pretty good plan 😊

Hello @Nala2022 thankyou ❤️.

It's been like it almost every night but I don't feel safe enough to share here anymore, not after what's happened.

Hope you're doing well and that you have a lovely weekend ❤️.

I’m really sorry to hear that it’s been happening almost every night @MissGremlin

I hear you that you don’t feel safe sharing here right now, and I’m sorry you’re feeling that way. I’m glad you’ve let me know how things have been, even if it’s only a little

I'm doing well thank you. I hope you’re able to have a gentle weekend, and I’m glad you’ve got Casper there with you 💛

@Nala2022

I'm hoping it's a gentle weekend, I'm really needing things to settle but it's going to be a roller-coaster ride for the next few months (I'm safe).

Casper is snuggled up with me, he's a good boy and I'm glad I've got him.

I’m so sorry you’ve had the experience of being stalked online. I can understand why that would feel incredibly upsetting, especially when this space has been so important to you

I’m glad you’ve let us know you’re safe, and I’m really glad you have Casper there with you

Can I ask, if the online stalking is related to the forums and you haven’t already reported it, please feel free to let us know by emailing us, so we can better understand what’s been happening

I hope you’re able to have some gentle moments this weekend with Casper by your side @MissGremlin 💛

@Nala2022 I'll send an email.

Thankyou, I'm just taking things very slowly and gently ❤️.

Thank you @MissGremlin

I'm glad you're trying to take it slow. We're here for you 💛

Thankyou @Nala2022, I've sent an email ❤️.

Casper got a new toy yesterday and was having fun playing tug-of-war with me. He's also just moved up to adult food, no longer a little baby, but he'll always be my baby ☺️.