I can’t cope

@Captain24 I'm glad you've got enough for both you and the dogs to get through. Really hoping the vet bill is the cheaper amount and that the testing isn't needed just yet.

3 weeks is still a while away but I'm glad you've got an appointment booked in and that she's going to invoice you rather than just taking it straight out of your account. Completely get you about not liking it when you owe people money, I'm the same.

That's tough, just take it slowly. Haha oh country roads are the best, i miss the country driving 😂.

Out of the next pay I only need to get fuel once as I’ll be off work for 2 weeks. I’m looking forward to that! We can do lots of diamond art!!! @MissGremlin. Plus I don’t need to find food for work so that’s a bonus too.

Now I know that she will invoice me and that that’s ok it takes a little stress out of her appointments.

I’ll let you know how the drive goes when I get to the smoke stop! Home in the morning I’m not worried about.

I just have to quickly iron work clothes, drop the dogs in and have a shower and then I’ll be able to go to bed!!! Not much to do.

Do you have much on? Only if you can say?

@Captain24 I'm so glad you've got those 2 weeks off coming up. Really hoping we can do diamond art together then, it's something to look forward to.

It definitely takes less stress out of the appointments with her.

Fingers crossed the roos stay off the road for you, I still remember when one jumped across my bonnet, it's tail just hitting the edge as it landed 😂.

So glad you don't have much to do, hoping you can get a good sleep before work tonight sweet.

I don't feel safe to share anything, this really sucks.

I forgot to iron my clothes!! Oops. I’ll do them when I wake up, it’s just jeans and the collar of my shirts as I’ll wear a jumper. @MissGremlin

Ive just had my shower and gotten into bed. I’m tired so I should sleep well.

Thanks for being with me.

I hope your afternoon is good.

@Captain24 oops, at least there's not much to iron.

Hoping you get lots of sleep.

I'm glad to be here with you sweet, always ❤️.

I had a good sleep @MissGremlin. I didn’t wake up and my watch said it was sound sleep.

I just drove that other road and there was absolutely no traffic. I think about 6 cars came towards me. They have done heaps of work on it. I wasn’t sure where I was going or what turn offs to take!!! But I made it. 😂

@Captain24 I'm so glad you good a decent sleep sweet. Also happy to hear that you made it, sounds like a nice quiet trip, I love not having much traffic around.

Hope work goes ok sweetheart, lots of love and hugs to you ❤️

@Captain24 I hope you don't mind me sharing here but it feels safer than my own thread right now.

I've had a really hard night with nightmares and panic attacks, I no sooner doze off to sleep before waking up after having another one. It's making the night feel very long and scary. It's hard cos i keep seeing the nightmares play out over and over again and if i close my eyes it gets worse, i can't escape them. I'm safe and I've been trying to calm myself down, my body is frozen at the moment so I'm only able to focus on Caspers breathing while he's laying on me, trying to match it to my own.

I just needed to get this out, to not feel so alone right now.

Hi @MissGremlin,

I just wanted to check in with you. That sounds like such a frightening and exhausting night. I’m really glad you reached out here and that you’ve got Casper with you

You’re not alone with this and I’m glad you’ve let us know that you’re safe.

Please keep taking things one moment at a time, and if at any point you feel like you need some extra support, it’s okay to reach out for that too 💛

Share wherever you need to @MissGremlin

If it feels safer here then go right ahead.

Im sorry it was such a rough night. It must be exhausting to go through that.