I can’t cope

Hey @AuntGlow

How are you? How has your day been?

Today I completed my entire list of things to do. I’ve sat for hours doing diamond art with MissGremlin and that’s been good and I’ve just had a 2 1/2 hour sleep!

@Captain24 I've tried so hard to nap, I've woken up so many times in the hour that I've dozed on and off. My head is pounding so much and my body is in a panic, I'm really over waking up like this 😞. I'm trying so hard to hold back tears but I feel so broken. It's past Caspers dinner time and I'm surprised he isn't asking for it yet, think he knows i just need to lay while things settle until I can manage to get up. I'm safe, just feeling overwhelmed and panicked, I'm laying and trying to focus on my breathing, listening to Casper snore quietly as he's laying on top of me. @AuntGlow tagging you in this rather than repeating it.

I'm glad you got a good sleep sweet, weetbix for dinner is yummy. I'm not even sure what to have yet, I can't think.

Helloooo! @Captain24

YAY! Good on you. 💛 Aww that sounds so fun. 🤩 Has it been grounding for you to sit in that space of mindfulness together? @MissGremlin

2.5 hours sleep, my gosh! How are you feeling now?

My day has been good! Ru-bee and I had a cute little brunch date and then I went to the gym (which I am trying to get better with, but I must admit, the machines are very intimidating! I prefer pilates or yoga & someone telling me what to do haha).

What have you been up to? Any beach days with your fur babies? 🥰

It has actually, we just chat as we go. We did a couple of hours yesterday as well. @AuntGlow. We do it often but with the forums not working I lost that important connection.

Im actually feeling tired. While it was a really restful sleep I’m still tired. I’ve had weetbix and my meds so I’m just doing diamond art until it’s time to feed the dogs at 8:30. Oh and chatting on here.

Brunch date sounds lovely. I miss @Ru-bee. hope she is doing well. Oh the gym… not a fan, actually never been a member of one! 😂 I totally get the telling you what to do. I’d freeze at all the machines. We did have gum when I was in hospital but the poor instructor had to keep telling me what to do! She was trauma informed though and has had some experience herself.

I haven’t been up to much. I just haven’t been mentally well enough and I don’t have any money. Getting my job list done was as much as I could do, but it’s the first time in a couple of weeks that I’ve been able to! So I’ll see how the next couple of days go before I head back to work again.

We go to the beach in October if I can ever get enough money to pay for my share. I’ve cancelled my next 2 psych appointments that I really need.

I’m sorry about that. @MissGremlin. It must be so hard to need it and not get it. The panic must be consuming.

Casper will understand. He knows he will get his dinner. He probably just wants to be with you and help you anyway.

Are you on your own at the moment? No people in the house?

@Captain24 i managed to get up to do his dinner, feeling a little less shaky now but still not settled. It's just so frustrating and overwhelming to constantly wake up like this, like it's not a once every now and then, it's every single time I wake up.

Yes I'm alone, just me and Casper. I'm going to do some more diamond art soon.

At least he is fed. @MissGremlin. I’m sitting here doing mine right now. I put my Oodie on so I am really warm and toasty and sleepy!! 😂

I wish I could help but I just don’t know what to say.

How long are you alone for? It must be nice

@Captain24 you help just by being here and listening sweet.

Warm and toasty sounds lovely, maybe not the sleepy part just yet though 😂.

I’m just warm and toasty and relaxed @MissGremlin its a nice feeling. Plus I took my meds early because I ate early! See how that goes!

Have you started your diamond art?

@Captain24 well it's not that much longer before you can feed the dogs and then hop into bed. It's a good feeling that's for sure.

Yep I'm sitting here doing my diamond art ☺️