I can’t cope

@Captain24 it comes up saying 'unable to connect you to a crisis supporter at this time'.

I only do the chat side, phone calls are too much. Sleeping has been hard still, was sleeping better when I was sick but now I'm back to not sleeping.

I think it's great to have the different personalities together hey @Captain24 keeps things interesting!

Glad you reported what's going on. I think the team is getting quite a few emails so it might be a smidge before anything happens.

Robes are the best! As are oil heaters haha, I like warming my socks on mine :P

There's been some moments for sure, I've been taking it slow thought and like.... taking photos of stuff instead of keeping it for example. Or asking myself if it would be hard to replace. It helps having a bit more space ^_^

Hope you do get through to the helpline soon @MissGremlin fingers crossed for you hun <3

Oh. Ok @MissGremlin. I hope you got through.

I like the chat mostly but sometimes I find a call easier as they can help when I don’t know what to say. I do lots of talk therapy though.

Im sorry sleeping isn’t any better for you. I’m glad im medicated. As much as I'm over taking them it does help.

I’ve done a bit more diamond art and I hope to get that section finished tomorrow. I might even sit up late to finish it. The next section makes it half way.

Im in bed now and will probably fall asleep quickly. I hope you have an easier night tonight.

Thank you for today it has been really good. I had company instead of sitting alone and I’m also proud of what I accomplished. While the thoughts are still there they are a little quieter. I feel as though I have earnt my right to sleep. I hope to see you tomorrow.

Praying sleep finds you.

@Jynx I'm still waiting to get through. I'm about to do some more diamond art while I'm waiting. Sitting with lots of big thoughts and feelings (I'm safe).

It is good to be different and see how they interact with being so different. Pix loves her belly being rubbed and Jett likes being held. But they both get jealous if one is getting attention and the other is not! @Jynx

It’s Im, they responded to my last one. I know that they are busy and getting a lot of emails if the same thing. Now that it’s working better I can deal with it more.

The space would be good but I’m glad you are looking after yourself in the

process. Do you take gentle moments with your self in the difficult parts? Do you also look at it and see how far you have come? That you are now living a life you are more comfortable with? But I guess you also grieve for who you were and moments?

@Captain24 hopefully soon I do, still currently waiting.

I find that I get too emotional and worked up on calls then struggle to get things out.

I'm glad they help you to get to sleep but I do get the getting over taking so many feeling.

I'm about to do some is my diamond art, hoping to finish this one today. Then maybe I can start a new one tomorrow and we can do some together again if you like.

You're so welcome and thankyou sweet, it's really helped to have connection, it makes things easier when you're not sitting alone with everything.

You've definitely earnt your right to sleep and I hope you get a really good one. Night night sweetheart, lots of love and hugs to you ❤️.

You have summed it up well honestly @Captain24 - just how intense this process can be! Our possessions can be such important symbols of our identity and sense of self. They can both show us how we've grown, and remind us who we are too. Letting go of things that carry such weight can be a difficult process for sure. I've definitely been getting support along the way and trying to be very gentle with myself ^_^

Hope you are snug in bed by now, and that you get some good rest tonight ahead of the bath time shenanigans tomorrow haha <3

I hope you finally got through and it was helpful @MissGremlin

did you get the diamond art finished? I hope it looks awesome.

I slept until my alarm went off so that was really good.

I just have to bath the dogs and that is it. So I’ll be free probably around 10:30 or a bit after. I have absolutely nothing else in so I can do anytime that suits you!

Im hoping you got some rest last night.

I’m glad you are getting support through it all. @Jynx I can’t even imagine how hard it is for you. But just know that I care and I’m thinking of you through this and glad you are doing what you can and not pushing too far. Plus being gentle. I really hope by the end it’s actually a therapeutic process for you and you gain insight and see your strengths.

I know I can be horrible and say horrible things but deep down I am a caring person and so think of others. Maybe that’s the Gemini in me. Or the bipolar.

I hope you have slept well and have a good day today.

Morning @Captain24 sweet, whilst I did finally get through, I didn't feel that the person cared or took things seriously as to how I was feeling and what was happening in that moment. But anyway, I'm here, I'm awake and it's time to face another day even if I'm not quite ready to (I'm safe).

I did finish my diamond art, here it is. It's really hard to get a pic where it shows the sparkles though.

I'm glad you slept until your alarm went off, you deserved a good rest after everything you did yesterday.

Hope bathing the dogs goes well and I can do diamond art with you whenever your ready.

I didn't go to sleep until after 2am again and it was a restless sleep, feeling very zombie like at the moment. I've made a cuppa and sat back in bed to drink it. Gotta sort out the gems to my new diamond art that I'll start when we do some together.