I can’t cope

@Captain24 hehe the tweety ones are so cute.

I shouldn't have to be but that's the way it is sadly. I can so relate to things feeling like a cyclone at the moment, it's full on and certainly leaves a path of destruction.

Wow, you've done amazing sweet, so proud of you. I find that once I get started it's usually easier to keep going but often finding the motivation to start feels impossible.

I just got home, my silly car was overheating so I'll have to put more coolant in when it cools down.

All I have to do tomorrow is clean the kitchen, bath the dogs, loads of washing, clean the laundry, tidy the spare rooms and do the floors. I should be done by lunchtime and then I’m free until Tuesday! @MissGremlin

Im sitting on the lounge exhausted. I still have to dry my hair. I can barely keep my eyes open! But at least my house is looking better and mum and dad noticed the difference out the front. 2 hours until I can feed the dogs and then go to bed. 😢

Im hoping that something happens for you. You deserve it and need it. I just can’t believe no one will help. I’ve got help just can’t afford it! But it’s $220 a session. Those 2 that I cancelled covers Pixies next bill.

@Captain24 I'm glad there's not much more to do and that after that's done you'll be able to relax until Tuesday.

I'm not surprised that you're exhausted, you've done so much. Maybe just take things slowly between now and bedtime sweet. I know 2 hours can feel like forever when you're so exhausted.

I really hope i can get some form of support, it's so frustrating that I can't especially when things are so severe. I'm glad you've got help but yes it's definitely expensive and you've got Pix's vet bills aswell.

Have you been approved for the time off yet that you put in for?

I just dried my hair and did the dishes. I was going to clean the kitchen but I just can’t do it. I’m just to tired. I only got a little bit of sleep today. Plus my back really really hurts. Badly. 😢 @MissGremlin

Im guessing you’re nearly in bed. What diamond art are you working on? You’ll have to share pictures of what you have completed in the last week. Since we couldn’t do it. Plus I can’t find and threads anyway. Only if you’re ok with it.

My leave did get approved. I have 2 more blocks of work to go then I get my block off. I was suppose to be 14 days but they put a training day in it so it’s only 13. I don’t have to go since I’m already on holidays but I get paid double time for it and I need the money!!!!

@Captain24 oh sweet, I'm sorry your back is so sore. The kitchen can wait until tomorrow. Time to let your body rest and hopefully you get a good night's sleep.

I'm not in bed, I'm sitting on my lounge staring at my diamond art. I want to do some but sort of just frozen at the moment. I'll have to share pics but at the moment they seem to be taking a long time to be approved since the new upgrade. I'll see if I can share them tomorrow.

I'm so glad that you've got that time off coming up, you deserve it so much. Bonus for the double time pay aswell as i know that's much needed.

The kitchen will be easier now that I finally did the dishes. Some have been sitting there 2 weeks. This is the most amount I have done in weeks. I think it was because I was over tired and had to keep going to stay awake as I didn’t k ow when mum and dad were coming home to pick up their dog. @MissGremlin

Phots are probably hard as there seems to be less mods at the moment and they are probably still having issues them selves.

I was thinking of doing diamond art but I really don’t want to. I need to do something until 8:30 though. My mind is wondering to all sorts of places. I have already taken my meds so that’s a good thing. I just have one thought rolling around in my head and it isnt helpful. I haven’t heard it while I’ve been busy but now it’s loud and clear. I’m safe.

Have you changed your routine or do you have something on? I get not really being able to do it. It’s just like your one saving grace isn’t helping.

@Captain24 you've done well to get them done, it doesn't matter how long things have taken, the point is that you've been able to.

Yes, the issues weren't just with us it was with them aswell so I'd imagine it's been hard to navigate everything. At least things are getting better now.

I relate to the mind wandering but I just don't have the energy to do anything. I know that thought can get pretty loud, just know that I'm here with you sweet ❤️.

Friday nights are always later, it messes with my routine. It's just been a really tough day today and I'm feeling unsettled. I'm safe for now, sitting on the lounge snuggled with Casper.

I w just taken heavy duty pain relief. It was questionable but I did it right. @MissGremlin

That thought just doesn’t stop. No one would care anyway. Who would miss me? In outside life.

Do you do stuff in Friday nights? or is it the others?

Im going to go and feed the dogs now. It’s a few minutes early but I just want to go to bed. Especially while the pain relief is making me drowsy. If I leave it past that stage I’ll be awake all night!

what time are you going to bed.

@Captain24 i am so glad that you tagged me because i wasnt sure if you wanted to talk with me or not. it is good to see you my friend. vent away i dont have a problem with people venting :) . please add me love bunniexxx

@Captain24 you did well to take it right, I get the temptation and how hard it is. I'm in the exact same boat (I'm safe).

I know I'd definitely miss you sweet, it might not mean much but I value our friendship and the connection we have here ❤️.

Others, though tonight I can't even use anyone else as an excuse, tonight it's just me 😂.

Feeding the dogs early and heading to bed sounds like a perfect idea. Really hoping you can get a good sleep.

I'm not even sure, not feeling sleepy so might just chill in the lounge until I am.