I can’t cope

I value what we have here too @MissGremlin. I’m the same, I’d miss you too. I actually have a list of contacts in my room for mum to contact if anything happens, if I have an accident or anything else. Here is one of them. Just an email but with instructions for the mods to pass it on. I don’t want people left wondering where I have gone for too long. I’m safe but mum has no idea who I talk to and stuff. My support team or anyone.

I hope staying up until you got tired helped with your sleep. How’s it been going?

I went to sleep the second my head I hit the pillow. Pix got her needle 5 minutes early so it wasn’t too bad.

I’ve just done a couple of loads of washing and I’m about to go do my grocery shopping. I’ve gotten dressed and put shoes on and not Ugg boots and it feels a little more human.

I have heaps to do today but if you have time I can stop and do some diamond art.

@Captain24 I'm the same in that I have a list of people/groups that need to be contacted in the case of anything happening to me, here being one of them. My friend is aware of where that information is aswell as the other details she needs.

My sleep has been all over the place, I was sleeping better when I was really unwell as I physically couldn't stay awake. But once i started getting better than it was a struggle again and still with nightmares though there's nights where I haven't had some so hoping the medication is starting to take effect. Last night however was a bad night, i shared a couple of posts in my thread about what happened, just to get things out. Didn't manage to sleep until 3am and then I kept waking up from nightmares (I'm safe).

I'm glad you fell asleep quickly last night, was it a decent night's sleep for you?

You've done amazing to get so much done already sweet, guessing you've probably been to do your grocery shopping by now too. I'd absolutely love to do some diamond art with you today, I have no plans so can do some whenever ☺️.

I’m sorry you are still having nightmares. You have only just increased the medication so still give it some time. But having some nights is good, hopefully it is starting to take effect. I’m sorry you didn’t sleep well last night though and it was rough. I just read it. I’ve added your thread to favourite so that I can follow it. There’s other threads that I need to be tagged in to find. I’m not sure anyone will tag me though. I’m sure they have forgotten about me now that things are running smoother @MissGremlin

I did sleep well so that was good.

Groceries are done and packed away and kitchen is spotless for the first time in a couple of weeks. I’ve just been wiping over the benches but this time I clean the appliances, stove top and all glass containers. I haven’t bathed the dogs yet or cleaned the floors!

How does 12 sound? I should be close to being finished by then.

How are you feeling today?

@Captain24 I'm the same with threads that I was in before but at the moment I can't see them in the favourites/subscribed, but hopefully that will change as they keep fixing things. Don't think it's that anyone has forgotten about you though, alot of members haven't been on or aren't aware of the old threads actually being active again.

I'm so glad you slept well, it always helps.

Well done sweet, you've done amazing and I'm so proud of you. I did manage to do a load of washing last night.

12 sounds good to me ☺️. I woke up this morning and couldn't remember what actually happened last night then it all started flooding back when I tried, now I want to forget it but I can't and it's bringing up so many thoughts/feelings again (I'm safe). I'm thinking I might put my roast beef on and migrate into the loungeroom.

I’ve just finished. I haven’t bathed the dogs or cleaned the laundry. That can wait until tomorrow. I’ve had enough. The entire rest of the house is spotless. I even tidied the spare rooms. I’ve cleaned the outside table ant the glass doors leading out to the back. I also took the light shades down and cleaned them. Just need them to dry so I can put them back up! I obviously can’t iron until this afternoon when the washing is all dry. @MissGremlin. I think that’s enough. I feel accomplished for the first time in ages.Its a good feeling.

Im sorry you remembered last night and all the thoughts are there. That’s so hard. The thoughts are never ending. They find us no matter what.

Roast beef sounds good!

I’ve just sat down at my diamond art and I’m ready to go.

@Captain24 you've done absolutely amazing sweet, the rest can definitely wait until tomorrow. I'm glad you feel accomplished, it's a good feeling.

I haven't even moved from my bed yet, I'll get dressed and sit with my diamond art so we can do some together ☺️.

I’m exhausted and need a nap! I’ll have one this afternoon. @MissGremlin. My house hasn’t been this clean in weeks. I actually don’t know how I managed to do it. The thoughts are a little quieter now though especially knowing we are doing this together.

If you want to stay in bed that’s ok. We can do it tomorrow?

@Captain24 I'm up! Ready to do diamond art with you ☺️.

I get that feeling, it's like when I get things done and I sit there after just thinking how 😂.

I have doubled my ADHD meds for now though. It’s safe! So maybe that helped. I’ve been a bit slack at taking them. I’m tired of taking medication and so much of it. I stopped it all once and that didn’t go well! 😂 I won’t do that again! @MissGremlin

Yay! There is only a little patch of grass at the start of this section. 18 rows wide and 15 long. There’s a lot more at the end though! But still lots of colours in the start section.

Hiw are you going? How far into it are you?

@Captain24 I'd imagine that's helped a bit with things. Stopping it all together would not have been ideal, definitely don't recommend doing that again 😂.

That's good there's only a little patch of grass, lots of colours sounds fun. The one I'm doing has 25 colours in it, 9 of them are sparkly gems.

I'm getting close to being finished, I've got one section left in this row and then only one row of sections left. I might even get it done today so I can start a new one.