I can’t cope

@Captain24 they are still doing works on the forums so not everything is functional yet, but it's getting there.

Sorry to hear sleeping was hard sweet, can imagine it wouldn't have helped having mums dog there and her not settling.

I think the things can wait sweet, you've only just come off of night shifts. Doing some diamond art sounds like a perfect idea. Hopefully we can do some together over the weekend.

I finished the square one, I like the detail in it but it definitely took longer having to line the squares up.

It’s much better than it was and it’s quicker too. I always read offline and then would come on to post. So much quicker. @MissGremlin

Maybe I’ll feel better when I wake up

tomorrow and can start it then. I still have dishes that I haven't done since Sunday as they can’t go in the dishwasher.

I emailed my psych and canceled my next 2 appointments. I just can’t afford them. I don’t know how often she checked her emails so I sent a text asking her to check them. It’s just not possible at the moment.

All mine are square. I’ve only done two round ones. How big was yours? That’s what all my 40x50’s are like. I think it fills the hole better.

I would love to do some diamond art together now we can communicate so much better!

@AuntGlow @Jynx I’m over here now. It’s good to be ‘home’ I can’t tag tyme and that makes me really sad 😢

My distress isn’t as bad now that I can post and things are working quicker. The not being able to post things was the worst I think.

Im still distressed as I was before anyway. The forums just pushed me over the edge.

I’ve also just cancelled my next 2 psych appointments 😢

@Captain24 yes, it's much quicker now.

Hoping you do feel better when you wake up tomorrow. It's ok though, the dishes can wait.

I'm sorry you've had to cancel your psych appointments, I'm hoping that she still checks in to see how you're going as I know how much you do need those appointments.

It does fill the hole better but i got a bit frustrated trying to line the squares up. I'll stick to the round ones but if there's one that I want the detail on then I'll probably pick it to be square.

Way quicker. That was causing me distress too. As well as not being able to post @MissGremlin

I have started to change the sheets and I want to do a couple of other things but I’ll see how I go. I do have to have a shower and wash my hair though. Clean sheets, clean hair, clean body! 😜

Hopefully tomorrow will be smoother.

I finished that section of diamond art that I was doing. Not feeling up for the frustration of starting the new section. Each new section starts with grass!

It can be frustrating but I find it really satisfying when you have a hole left that has dots on all sides and you put that one little dog in the hole! Small things 😂

Im sorry they came, you were drowsy and not thinking straight. It’s ok that you couldn’t communicate or open the door. Even though they had them with them you weren’t functioning well. Don’t be frustrated. I had them turn up here one night and I’d been asleep for nearly to hours. I had missed the checkin email as I was asleep and they got called. I only knew they were here because the dogs barked. I had to let them in and they talked to me fr about 10 minutes and I said I’m really sorry, I’m safe as I was asleep and my alarm goes off at 4:30 to go to work and I have to go. I finally convinced them that I was ok as they could see I had just woken up. I could t really think straight then and it was pretty obvious. They asked me if they could do another welfare check the next night and I said no.

@Captain24 it was definitely causing alot of people stress with the forums glitches.

You're doing well to be changing the sheets and having a shower sounds good so that you can have clean everything. It's such a nice feeling.

Oh not the grass 😂. Can relate to when a section feels frustrating to start. Haha so it's not just me that gets that satisfying feeling when you fill that one gap that's surrounded already 😂.

The sweetness that that little square fits neatly in. Sometimes I even put the surrounding ones around just so I can do it when there is a few of the same colour! 😂 @MissGremlin

I can understand you hesitation in opening up. Rejection hurts and you are so use to it. Everywhere you turn it happens so I can understand that fact that you are wary of it. It would make it really hard.

@Captain24 haha yes! The one I'm working on at the moment has sparkly gems with it as well as normal ones so it's been interesting to do. I also had another 11 arrive the other day so that was exciting. I have a tweety one to do!

Rejection really does hurt, it's sad that I've actually gotten used to it and expect it before it even happens. Guess it's a way of preparing oneself for when it does happen in the hopes that it hurts less.

I've got to head out soon so I shall chat to you a bit later sweetheart, lots of love and hugs to you ❤️.

Gems would be cool. Some of the ones I ordered from temu have gems. Plus there is 3 tweety ones! @MissGremlin

It is sad that you are use to it. You shouldn’t have to be. I’m so sorry that you are. Prepare for the worst hope for the best. That’s what my psych said because we’re calling what I’m going through ‘cyclone Tracy’

Ive been on fire. I have moved everything of the back verandah and hosed it down. For the first time in probably 3 years! I have swept all out the front. There is no cobwebs at all in those areas and they look good. Just have to put all my furniture back when it dries. Now I’m about to clean the shower and wash my hair. Mum should be here in about 30 minutes!

@Cuddlebear @AlwaysMyself @Chasingsunsets @Bunniekins

Im over here now. If you’d like to connect still. If you don’t want to that’s ok too. No pressure. I do tend to use this as a journal sometimes and just let everything out and it can be a bit much. I’m also not good at tagging when venting so please don’t be offended. I kinda think ‘do they really want to see this?’

Your choice.