I can’t cope

@Captain24 I'm really struggling. I've dozed on and off but only for a few minutes at a time. I have to go out, I don't want to but don't have a choice.

Hoping my body adjusts to it too, it just worries me how much only half a tablet of 1mg affected me.

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I'm sorry mum woke you up but I'm glad she brought you some lunch. I was hoping things would be feeling better for you but I'm here sweet and we'll keep pushing through the day together ❤️.

I’ve just come home from being out @MissGremlin. Got dog food and went to the vets and got needles and booked Pix in for next week Thursday for more tests. I got out and this is how bad I’m feeling, my hair isn’t done just messily tied up and I don’t have a bra or undies on.

I started on one tablet for a week and then went to two. Some days affected me more than others. It took a couple of weeks but it did settle down and my blood pressure is perfect.

Lunch was ok. I sat in the lounge and it took me some convincing to go and get the stuff but at least it’s done now.

I hope your outing goes ok. I know how hard it is.

@Captain24 you did so well to get out sweet, I'm so proud of you. It's ok that it's a messy day, the point is that you still went out.

My blood pressure is on the lower side usually so I have to be careful.

Glad lunch was ok.

It's really hard, I've already had to jump-start my car twice and will have to another 2 times still.

@Captain24 just wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of you sweetheart and sending so much love and hugs ❤️.

It's been a really hard day for both of us but we're heading towards the end of it now and I'm hoping that tomorrow is a better day for us ❤️.

Thanks @MissGremlin. I’m still around just a little quiet. I’m watching some tv.

I went out and got fuel. I thought I wanted some ice cream so I got that and the kebab shop smelt good so I got one. At least it was a better dinner than I’ve been having. I also just had some ice cream.

I slept this afternoon after I got back and I just want to go to sleep now. I just want to cry. I’m so empty.

How are you going?

@Captain24

You did so well to go and get fuel and ice cream, I'm so glad you got a kebab aswell. I went and got fuel earlier too.

It's good that you got some sleep and I'm hoping you can get a good night's rest tonight. I'm sorry that you're feeling emotional and empty, I'm here sitting with you ❤️.

I feel similar. It’s hard and has been a while since I felt like this. @MissGremlin

I’ve just finished feeding my babies so I think I’ll head to bed.

Im sorry about today.

@Captain24 i hear you sweet. You have nothing to be sorry for.

I hope you can get some sleep sweet and fingers crossed tomorrow is better for both of us.

I got a better sleep last night @MissGremlin. I feel really down and out and don’t really want to do much. But I have to today. I’ve runout of one of my scripts! I’m hoping he will write one.

How are you going?

Morning @Captain24 sweet, I got 9 hours of sleep last night but I'm still struggling and feeling so exhausted. I hear you on not wanting to do much but not having a choice, it's so hard.

Today I'm simply existing, things feel so heavy. I'm safe, just snuggling with Casper on the lounge.