I can’t cope

Hi @MissGremlin it is so understandable to feel afraid about reaching out to triage but see how you feel once you have had a rest and get cozy with your blankets. Perhaps you can call triage later if you feel you need to and just maybe take it from moment to moment right now. See how you are once you have given your body and mind a moment to rest- you have already accomplished so many chores this morning as well 💓

Hello @Tolly, that's what I plan to do, see if I can rest and give things a chance to settle. I'm glad I got the chores done and had a shower, at least they are out of the way. I think today is a perfect day to snuggle with Casper on the lounge, it's wet and cool here. Thankyou ❤️.

@MissGremlin snuggling with the beautiful Casper and eating some chocolate sounds just wonderful!!!!!! 💐

I know I need to be gentle and I need to learn to not punish myself. It’s just really hard. I’m just washing my towels and when I throw them in the dryer I’m going to go and lay down. I’m really unable to even cope moment by moment. I’m 100% safe. @Nala2022

Maybe this afternoon will feel a little better. I’m really hating on myself. For allowing this to happen, for letting myself feel this way. Im feeling really weak. Even typing is draining.

Im concentrating on my breathing as it’s becoming difficult. I’ve been walking around the backyard. I’ve been snuggling with Pix and now Jett is in my lap.

My towels have just finished so I’ll go and lay down for a bit.

@Captain24 we can have a lay down together sweet. I've just heated up my wheat bag and now I'm snuggled with Casper on my lounge. I think we both need a chance to just rest even if we can't sleep, our bodies are drained in every possible way from anxiety and a lack of sleep plus the thoughts that take such a toll. Sending you lots of love and hugs sweetheart ❤️.

How did the shower go? @MissGremlin. My towels have just finished washing and I’m going to throw them in the dryer and head to bed and lay down for a bit.

It is say hard to say. You know what you are meant to say but it’s hard when you can’t do it yourself.

hi @Captain24 I hope you can have a well-deserved rest. You always doing your best and please be kind to yourself, I know that is something you find almost impossible at times 💜 but you do so much and I want you to know that it is noticed, all the strength you have and how you are there for others as well, now you need to fill your own cup as the saying goes and if you are feeling drained and you need a rest, allow yourself that time to replenish your energy. You even got some towels washed and dried and that is enough, have a wonderful rest now. 💐

@Captain24 the shower was ok but I had to sit down when I got really dizzy. I'm on the edge of calling an ambulance at the moment as my heart rate has spiked and my rhythm isn't normal, I'm giving it 20 minutes to see if it settles but if not I'll get it checked out. Really hoping it's not the new medication causing it (I'm safe).

I'm glad the towels have finished, throwing them in the dryer and then having a lay down in bed sounds perfect, I'm hoping you can get some sleep and maybe things will feel better this afternoon.

100% agree with you there.

How are you going @MissGremlin ?

One of the medications I’m on is for high blood pressure. It took a little while for my blood pressure to get use to it and now I have no problems.

Mum woke me up.

O got a little bit of sleep until mum woke me up. She brought around some lunch and dog treats. @Tolly

I don’t feel any better. I just want to go back to bed to just forget. Forget everything. I don’t feel the ability to be kind to myself.

My cup is so so empty and I feel really bad and horrible about it. It makes me feel like a bad person. I am so empty and have nothing, not just my cup.

I need to go out for half an hour and then maybe I can go back and rest. I haven’t achieved anything other than 2 loads of washing. I haven’t done nothing and I’m ashamed of that. My value is on what I achieve so I have no value today.

Im feeling so down and hard on myself.